I'm new here
Please don't be scared. I travelled around this great country a lot when younger in the Air Force and post then, it has a lot to offer and mostly friendly safe to be with people.
You obviously are a kind and considerate person, also with your illnesses you need someone that is compassionate and patient. Being alone for a time afterwards will allow you to find yourself, seek knowledge of your illnesses without the stress of an abusive partner.
You seem to be doing a lot of worrying. Here is a thread you can read just the first post if you like.
We have a great library here, just use search or raise topics as you have already done.
A very warm welcome to the forums, I am also a Canadian living in Australia. I have been living here for about 14 years now so I am very glad that you like the environment and culture.
I am so sorry to hear that you have been going through this, I am so glad you have a support system in your church family however I can understand how isolating and stressful it must be to be in your position.
Can I ask, have you spoken to your GP and psychiatrist about what you are going through?
We are definitely here for you!