I’m 38 now
12 years ago I left a horrific full abusive DV relationship I just walked away he never understood my wants and needs. I’ve never been understood by my family because they have failed to get to know me always crossing me off and singling me out. I have not opened up to a councillor yet. As this is the first time I’ve spoken properly about this. It is Such A Touchy Subject!!! With a phycologist I think it will be good.
I left home when I was 16. Home being dad’s house. I’ve always turned to food for happiness and I’ve always had an eating disorder. Still I’ve managed to not get past 72kilos. When my boyfriends at 17 and 18 parents chucked me out. I turned to food and got to 100.
I met boys and girls along the way from school who I had to become friends with. So yes never really a clear healthy forms of relationships.
I’ve got rentals alone. I met my now ex in a Shared living house. He beat me up every two weeks for three years. Yes police were involved. AVO is on him. But I went online to a dating site as an escape. And I was fcked over. So badly that I couldn’t determine who I was or think like I was feeling & thinking previously. He kept seeing me relentlessly without me wanting him to. Happily took my life and helped himself to my time. Police were involved but they said to focus on my other relationship and heal. I’ve now moved . And I am so lost. I get up and do extra thinks every day. But I don’t want to.
