Go away December... hurry up January!
Today is the 28th of November, and January can't get here soon enough. I really do dislike December.
For many people, December means social gatherings with colleagues, friends and family, to celebrate the spirit of giving. And with NYE and the fireworks, the hope of a new year and a better tomorrow.
Where externally I put on a good show, for the benefits of family and friends, internally it is the painful prequel leading up to a time of disappointment and loneliness. As far back as I can recall, I have always been the outsider, the castaway, and the excluded. At first, Christmas was the day spent sitting in the chair, quietly facing the wall, whilst siblings and cousins played with the new games and toys. Later it became that day quietly sitting in the other room, whilst they shared eggnog, merrily conversed and shared a pleasant meal. Now days, it's pretending to be happy so my kids don't have to experience that hollow absence that always visited me.
My hope is that my kids will never learn of my holiday misery, that they will instead pass on holiday joy to their families (when that time comes), and that they will never feel the loneliness of Christmas. On the positive side, my kids are flying down on Christmas day to see their mother. (they should be gone by the time I feel blue)
There would be many people on the forums that feel exactly the same as you do. I feel your pain this time of year as it brings back so many memories and especially when I was a child....the true joy of Christmas
I was fortunate as I spent my childhood in Niagara Falls ONT and I remember how special Christmas was....white Christmas etc...Carols...it was magical..
I have forced myself to see my GP so often for support and a 'fine tune' that I am less depressed with Christmas the last few years but it can have its hurdles when we have depression...thats for sure SB
Hope 2018 is a better year for all of us. geoff.
I'm one of those people who hate this time of year as well. I usually meet up with my siblings, but I have no friends to get together with. (My siblings are well-meaning, but - the one time a year I generally see them - they tell me of all the great times they've had this year, what they and their friends have done this year, what their wonderful children have done this year.... It does not make me feel better!)
Perhaps we could all help each other by not pretending any more, that we need to do anything for Christmas and New Year. A lot of the problem is that when I go back to work next week, people will ask what I did for Christmas / New Year, if I say "nothing" I'm made to feel as if there's something wrong with me, because of course "everybody" gets together with friends and family. Maybe if we all stopped pretending to others that Christmas is a great time, we wouldn't all feel like there was something wrong with us for not enjoying it.