Good to hear from you again. It's great to hear you in a lighter mindset today- try to harness that feeling. Recognise what got you there, so you can do those things when you find you need to get yourself there again. Documentaries work wonders! So can visiting caring friends. Giving up can be a struggle, as you say- would you like me to link some resources for you to navigate through that? It's ok if you aren't ready to open up romantically again either- that just takes time and self-compassion.