Dear Blind and in Pain,
I want to start by pointing something out, which may not seem obvious; by reaching out on here, you are no longer having to suffer in silence. You can come here, as much as you like and share with us about what is going on for you.
And while I really don't know what happened on "That day", I do know that there is help available, and that Beyond Blue is 'open' 24/7 for that very reason.
There is also the section on Supporting yourself: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/personal-best/pillar/supporting-yourself which you may find helpful?
And perhaps too, if you haven't already, I would like to suggest to make an appointment with your doctor, and/or a counselor so that you can talk things through with someone, while your friend is out of town. Do you think that might help?
I too have recently been struggling (mainly because of the fire activity nearby) and just last Wednesday had a meltdown at work. But that afternoon I went to see my doctor. And now I have a new mental health plan, something very mild to help me sleep a bit better, and am feeling better already.
I am not 'cured', and nor am I a professional. But I am a fellow human being with her own issues, who has learnt some skills in how to deal with the down days better than I used to.
I hope that you too can find the help and support you need. Take care. I'll be thinking of you. xo
