Why is earth so cruel?

[Guest5643]

Hi

I know no one can answer this but i dont understand why humankind was created to endlessly suffer. Its not fair. Why wasnt humankind created to feeI peace. Im realy angry with this life and so exhausted. I get this intense scared feeling for no reason like im haunting myself. Why were we all created to endure non stop mental suffering. I want my mummy back.

Lynne

[CKS]

Hi Lynne

I agree with the suggestion that we are all different and as such we all heal differently.

I am 58 years of age and my trauma started at 6 years of age. I was diagnosed with CPTSD at age 55... only 3 years ago. I went through a lot of emotions when the diagnosis came. For the most they were relief, anger and fear. I started to do some research about CPTSD and became aware that the condition is with one forever. But my psychiatrist said it doesn't have to be all consuming anymore. The more I learnt about my condition and its symptoms i started to understand myself and validate my person. The more I learnt the more control i seemed to bring into my life and upon the symptoms I hated so immensely. The more i acknowledged the why's and how fore's the more peace i brought into my life and the lives of the ones i love. I did a lot of writing and visualisation techniques. I grew to accept that i will always have CPTSD, but since my diagnosis I have healed a great deal and found a special sense of peace within me.

I Hope this helps in some way.

With love CKS

[MyLadyGirl]

Hello CKS,

You have got my point there. It's how you over come a person problem thinking out of the box. Doing things by learning itself the consequences and reason behind it and over coming it in a form of visualisation and knowing what is wrong. You learned that the people that are with you supported you and being there to over come your problem.

There is no words to say that you have overcome your deepest illness and found peace within your self.

Kudos to you CKS.

[MyLadyGirl]

All good with me. It's just I used to hate the world so badly until I realise that I was the cause of the hate. Yes we are in different capacity in learning about our illness. Thank you for understanding me and having me to talk about what's happening.

Cheers

[MyLadyGirl]

Hello Tony WK,

Thank you for sharing your stories about your self. Yes we limit our self due to age, our health and other matters. We cannot be like before. I too feel weak sometimes but never make myself to fall in negative though especially with a different mindset of thinking in culture and what people are doing.

[therising]

Hi Lynne

I wish I was there to give you the biggest warmest hug, I do wish so much.

I also wish that you could find the child within, the one that perhaps knew peace at one point; the one that loved to laugh and play, to adventure, to trust, to love and so much more. Perhaps that's the part that can haunt us all at some stage, that little soul who knocks on the door of our mind and says 'Please remember me'.

I believe peace to be about growing up with that child, maturing that child. Growing out of being that child can be an incredibly painful process. One day we may look at our self and grieve for this part of us we've lost. We may, in our mind, say 'I want my mummy to show me how to live again, as I have forgotten and I'm scared and sad'.

A little out of the the blue but I've absolutely come to love Seal's music all over again but for different reasons compared to why I used to love it. One things Seal states on his earlier albums is that songs mean different things to different people, which is why he cares not to reveal what they actually mean. I love them because I imagine them to reflect beautiful divine conversations. Sounds a bit crazy but his music makes my heart sing for this reason. There's a song called 'Don't cry' which has an opening which goes 'Don't be so hard on yourself, those tears are for someone else. I hear your voice on the phone, I hear you feel so alone, my baby'. I imagine the divine in this line expressing to the child 'Don't be so hard on yourself, those tears are for the older you who's suffering. I hear you in prayer, crying because you feel no one can help or understand, little one'. He goes onto sing 'When we were young and truth was paramount, we were older then and we lived our life without any doubt'. When we were young, very young, we lived as our true self. We were much wiser in how we lived, without any doubt (before others put it there). We grew out of being our self, our most authentic self.

The question becomes 'How do we re-turn to the truth, to our self?' I think first we have to have faith that sweet self is still there, inside of us, patiently waiting to be brought back to life. If it's any help, when I'm in two minds about something, I will always trust the child in me to make the best decision, within reason. You know that sort of talk that goes 'I want to do this', then you hear the saboteur in you say 'No, you can't do that. What would people say?' I just do it, without any doubt. I trust.

Take care Lynne

[Guest5643]

Thankyou everyone for your super kind thoughtful thoughts words from the heart. I know id be a very different person if jesse was still working. I saw a cattle dog working at the shops today😔

I think the cruelest thing with life creation is that we were created to dream each night. So many people constantly wake up exhausted cause of nightmares and night terrors. We would be so much more mentaly sound if we constantly had sleep with no memories so we could truly rest our mind. I have felt that pure warm intense peace with my nde. Ive never ever felt anything like that while here. So i know peace does exist. I havnt listened to seal but ill look at his music. My favourites are linkin park and sia. There lyrics are incredible.

Ive been in remission before for my depression so i know it can happen again. It wasnt helful when the psych said you had severe depression at 16 then at 32 so in 10-15 yrs youll most likely get it severe again and so on. Im not saying he was right however. My ocd and autism however is something that is not curable but i wouldnt want it to be either. My aspergers is something i generaly dont mention it cause i find people to talk to treat me like an idiot when they find out. It became a useful scapegoat tool to use for my family for there problems mistakes.

Lynne

[therising]

Hi Lynne

I hope you definitely don't listen to anyone who tells you that depression will most likely come back. I remember when I was in my depression many years ago, people told me I'd probably be living with it for the rest of my life. Nothing quite like that bit of info to seal the fate of the soulful child in us.

1) We begin as the child and if we're fully inspired then we reach the highs of our natural self. 2) If we're not inspired then we do not live up to our greatest potential. 3) If the child in us becomes deeply hurt time and time again then bits of that aspect of us feel like they are removed. So it's kind of like we can come to live life on a high, whilst grounded by acquired maturity and experience or we can live a basic grounded experience or we can live a life below ground (kind of like a living hell), in a depression. I believe a nde is pretty much as high as one can get whilst we're here on earth. So I can understand that incredible peaceful feeling. It must have felt exhilarating, to say the least.

The dream aspect of our existence is definitely interesting. I love interpreting dreams. I believe we dream in metaphors. Once you learn to master the language of dreams, they can prove inspiring. I believe dreams or nightmares will typically call for us to seek opportunities that are being presented to us in life. A couple of examples:

• You dream you're approaching the front door of your childhood home but are being followed by someone or something 'evil'. You feel like you're going to be killed. You suddenly wake up. My interpretation - There may be an opportunity present or coming to life which entails you 'returning home' (to your childlike nature). You may fear that child in you is going to be destroyed by another before you can open the door to that possibility. Take home message - Wake up and have faith and fear nothing and no one who threatens your opportunity to fully live. When you reverse the word 'live', the subconscious proves itself to be rather a quirky clever thing. The opposite of living is like 'being in hell' at times
• Being able to naturally fly relates to 'seeking the natural highs in life'. Take home message - Take notice of things that offer natural highs, which will help take you out of the lows. Eg: Research high vibrational food, pure water without chemicals, high vibing natural people etc, places in nature which are reputed as having high energy (natural springs for example). Ley lines are an interesting topic 🙂

[MyLadyGirl]

therising, they way you said and expressed yourself about child within our self is a very interesting way to understand what people goes through in life. I agree with you that one should not listen to others because different people have different opinion and way of thinking. When you listen to people we believe that what they say may be true and will fill fall under depression and hence hate the world thinking it's a bad world. I remember my late aunty told me, when you are young you think that the world was a playground and people loves you. No problems, no depression, no anxiety and no mental illness. As years goes by, we became more immersed to the world. We became attached to the surrounding. People talks, people lifestyle, family issues we get involved, what's not we want happen and eventually we get absorbed with it without realising the true meaning. We let go the child that was so happy within (except crying for milk and sleeping) because of our desire wanting for things and depression. We let go the child. However, that child can be unlocked if we want. I always believe that we only limit oneself and not take chances. We follow just one way just to protect one self from being hurt and getting hurt. We don't want the child to come out because afraid to be hurt and being hurt so we use a safe journey.

The way you have interpreted , dreams is very impressive and meaningful. Life can be a hell if it's look into another way. But I do not understand when you say ' When you reverse the word 'live', the subconscious proves itself to be rather a quirky clever thing. The opposite of living is like 'being in hell' at times' Care to share what it means.

Lynne, Don't give up, you can do it if you believe that your illness is not all the cause of what you are going through. I may not know how your feeling as I guess that you are very upset and sad that you mental illness is making you feel sad.. I wish you do not think that. I hope you show your childless in you, so you can be lifted up.