Trauma from the death of my newborn baby

[ACPP]

Hi there, I want to make this brief. My first born son, Parker, passed away at 40 weeks pregnant due to medical negligence. This was a little over a year ago now. I am now blessed with another son who is 14 weeks old. Every day I am pained by what happened. My whole life has changed. I have anxiety, depression and PTSD now. Iv never suffered from any of these before until the death of my son. Parenting after loss is so hard. I’m in constant fear of losing him too. I have flashbacks of when they confirmed “no heartbeat”, when I was begging to save his life but they wouldn’t listen. I have been seeing a psychologist since he passed Away very regularly but I feel like it’s just not helping as much as I want it too. Thank you for listening. Much love to all.

[Sophie_M]

Hi ACPP
Losing a child is one of the most painful things a person can go through and it is heartwarming to hear you now have a 14 week old, despite the huge challenges that would come with parenting after such a loss. We’re so grateful to have you reach out to our community tonight and are so sorry to hear about what you’ve been going through. We hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you. Keep checking in to let us know how you’re going, whenever you feel up to it.   

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi ACPP,

I just wanted to welcome you to the forums and I am so sorry to hear about the the loss of Parker. I can imagine that it's been so hard from you and probably a bit of mixed emotions in being blessed with a son and yet still dealing with all of this pain.

I'm glad to hear that you are seeing a psychologist even if it's not helping as much; what do you think that you need from either us (or your psychologist) that would be helpful?

I hope that you can feel comforted by the forums here. I also wanted to let you know of a charity called SANDS which is a organisation specifically for the loss of stillbirth, miscarriage and newborn death. They have both phone support, face to face groups and online groups as well. I'm suggesting them because they are both full of resources, helpers and also people who have been there and 'get it'.

https://www.sands.org.au/stillbirth-and-newborn-death?gclid=EAIaIQobChMIqKywl-nX6QIVUh0rCh3H9AFKEAAY...

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[worldcitizen1919]

Dear ACPP.

Im so, so sorry about your distress and ongoing suffering and want desperately to reach out and help. I have some information that I believe can help you understand your situation to be better able to cope with it. I believe it could assist you.

Regards

David

[worldcitizen1919]

Dear ACPP,

This is the information I would urge you to reflect on as it may give you closure.

https://www.bahaiblog.net/2017/06/personal-reflection-miscarriages-stillbirths/

Regards,

David

[Percysmother]

Dear ACPP,

I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your Parker. I am so happy to hear you have a 14 week year old son. Your concern feels so warranted. I hope you have lots of support around you to help you through this period. It is not something that would be easy to carry on your own.

I lost my precious son Percy at only 3 days old, I fear also due to medical negligence though we are still waiting for the coroner's investigation to follow through. It is so so hard to deal with this grief.

[geoff]

Hello ACPP, can we offer you a very warm welcome to the site and hope that you are still on the forums.

I just can't imagine having to go through a situation like this and so deeply devastated by how you are feeling, and certainly appreciate the arrival of your 14 week old son, although I know the pain you are trying so hard to avoid isn't that easy and so deeply sorry for how you are trying to cope.

I'm not a doctor and not qualified to say, however, has the psychologist ever mentioned PND to you, and excuse me for saying this, but your doctor might be able to prescribe medication that could settle these thoughts down because young children demand so much attention, especially as you aren't feeling well and only know this from experience as my ex also suffered from PND with our second child.

We all hope so much for you to get back to us whenever you are available.

My special thoughts.

Geoff.