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A_Tech PTSD for Medical and First Responders
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Hi, Well obviously this my situation. I was hoping to find others here that might have a similar background to chat with, it can be so hard to talk about this stuff with non-med people (and I mean no disrespect, it's just often graffic or upsetting t... View more

Hi, Well obviously this my situation. I was hoping to find others here that might have a similar background to chat with, it can be so hard to talk about this stuff with non-med people (and I mean no disrespect, it's just often graffic or upsetting to others). Im a 40 year old female that has spent the last 10years in the State Trauma Hospital as an Anaesthetic Technician. My PTSD was brought about after years of exposure to shocking traumas, deaths, and no support from management. I would love to hear from anyone that has a similar story, or just wants to chat. Cheers

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MT92 Bullying in high school shaping adult life
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Hi all, I recently have found out my brother was severely bullied in high school 10+ years ago and it has negatively impacted his adult life in a pretty serious way. I knew back at the time he was getting some grief but I was busy skipping school etc... View more

Hi all, I recently have found out my brother was severely bullied in high school 10+ years ago and it has negatively impacted his adult life in a pretty serious way. I knew back at the time he was getting some grief but I was busy skipping school etc and stupidly put it down to just the usual high school issues I thought every kid faced and didn’t really think much of it. I have very recently learnt due to him telling me briefly the extent of the bullying being both very physical and emotional with regular beatings and emotional bullying all due to things that were made up about him from another student. As a result I am now seeing him struggle with depression, anxiety, and what seems to be in my unprofesssional opinion ptsd like symptoms. He now doesn’t like to be very social, has trouble trusting many people and is quite withdrawn from most things. He also doesn’t look after his health overly well. I took time to do some research and it led me to lost here for some help. How can I help him in any way to encourage him to get back to his former self or to get a positive outlook on life again. I don’t want to come on too strongly and cause him to shy away from the issues or not want to confide in me which may cause more issues being that I’m one of very few that he can talk to. I’ve always had very strong mental health so it’s hard for me to put myself in his shoes to be able to help in some way. Any advice would be super. thanks in advance

Hobbit339 My life/story/intro
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Hello I am a 31 year old male who has recently found out that I suffer from ptsd, my father was an violent abusive alcoholic and at age 5 my mother threw him out,around this time I was out in the streets fighting other boys as I was angry about my fa... View more

Hello I am a 31 year old male who has recently found out that I suffer from ptsd, my father was an violent abusive alcoholic and at age 5 my mother threw him out,around this time I was out in the streets fighting other boys as I was angry about my fathers behaviour and I started school at this time my mother had to pull me out as I was getting bullied by older boys and getting into fights so my mother moved us to live with my grandmother I was enrolled back in school at age 6 I was bullied at this school and assaulted daily and verbal abuse and intimidation, I stopped reporting the abuse as teachers did not care and started fighting back this when on till grade 5 my mother put me in a different school which was not as bad but I still got bullied not physically just verbal abuse I then went on to highschool and only lasted 6 months as my life was a living hell my mother tried to homeschool me for the next six months but we ended up homeless and living in our car this was for some time just before my 14th B-Day I was taken by docs and placed in a home, the people who looked after me put me in school I was their for 4 months my mother got me back but we ended up homeless two more times on the last time we were pulled over by police and my mother,myself and my three sisters were assaulted by these police docs were called and they helped us get into housing,the area we lived in was a high crime area, our pets were killed my mother was assaulted by a drunk man our brakes were cut and the cars tampered with in other ways to cause an accident, try to set fire to the house, assault me, smashed windows and broke in, we became desperate to get out so we payed off a block of land but found out that the man sold us land we can't build on, we spent ten years living with no electricity and little water my family fell apart and we all have mental health problems , I have been unemployed my whole adult life as I can't be around people and I trust no one I have never been in a relationship and I don't function properly anymore, One of my sisters tired to kill herself and the other one has serious mental health problems that she rarely leaves the unit she lives in, sorry for the way this was written I am using my phone.

Jezza251 C-ptsd and child abuse survivor
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Having a real tough time finding the right medication at the moment. everyday seems like a lottery on how I'll feel and what I remember. I've tried to do one thing everyday to take back who I want to be to fight against the way I was groomed conditio... View more

Having a real tough time finding the right medication at the moment. everyday seems like a lottery on how I'll feel and what I remember. I've tried to do one thing everyday to take back who I want to be to fight against the way I was groomed conditioned and beaten down. this will be medication number 8 and I have hopes that I'll find the one that works for me. this is more of a post to say stick with it, 12 months ago I was a mess, now I'm still a mess but I have a path and a plan. keep strong everyone and don't let the abusers win

brian23 Hello everyone. First post, seeking support for sexual harassment and PTSD.
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Hey, everyone. I hope you're all doing well in your own journeys. I am very thankful to anyone who takes the time to connect with me here, and offer some comfort. I'm here because my PTSD has been triggered by recent sexual harassment. I'm a young ma... View more

Hey, everyone. I hope you're all doing well in your own journeys. I am very thankful to anyone who takes the time to connect with me here, and offer some comfort. I'm here because my PTSD has been triggered by recent sexual harassment. I'm a young man, and a middle-aged woman made sexual comments towards me in a digital setting. (She is probably 20 years older than me.) She was very judgemental when I expressed discomfort, and ultimately deleted her on social media. I have taken practical steps to separate from her, and have informed a relevant community organiser, who will be speaking with her about boundaries, etc. Practical safety aside, I'm feeling hollow inside, and scared. This is bringing up some negative stuff. When I was in year 8, an older girl emotionally manipulated me, and sexually harassed me into having a relationship with her. She performed sex acts in front of me, with her older boyfriend. When I was in year 10, two adult women sexually harassed myself and a friend, and instructed us to kiss in the backseat of a car, telling me afterwards not to inform my mum about what happened. It made me feel dirty and shameful, as though I had done something wrong, when I was simply the victim of adult inappropriateness. Those feelings are returning now, even though I logically know I am not at fault. My childhood experiences conditioned me to think "how could I have avoided this" and "how am I responsible for what happened", and even though I deliberately try to resist these nonsense impulses, they still creep up on me. I am happy about one thing. I told this woman that I was uncomfortable, I sought accountability, and I removed myself from the situation. So, this is a victory. Because in the past, I didn't resist. I was too afraid to stand up for myself. I would be unable to sleep, sick with terror, stomach in knots. Throughout all these experiences, I was never attracted to women (I am a gay man), so that made their perverted sexual advances even more frightening. At a young age, I knew I only liked boys, but I tried to convince myself I liked girls just to appease female predators. I think this is a fresh start. I will never allow another woman's inappropriateness to go unaddressed. I feel empowered, but I also feel disgusted. I feel angry. I want women to stop doing this to me, to just leave me alone. I want justice for the sexual harassment that occurred when I was young, but I don't know if I'll ever get it. Thank you for reading.

HealingTheSoul Will I Ever Overcome This Depression?
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Where to begin, this is my first time posting on this online forum and I find it difficult to even write down my feelings as I feel that for the first time in a long time I am acknowledging them. Living with trauma depression, accompanied by social a... View more

Where to begin, this is my first time posting on this online forum and I find it difficult to even write down my feelings as I feel that for the first time in a long time I am acknowledging them. Living with trauma depression, accompanied by social anxiety is extremely difficulty. I find myself constantly worried about what everyone is thinking with the never ending question "Where will I end up in my life?" From a young age, I was abused by my father both mentally and physically while spending each night praying and asking for my mum to leave him. At the age of 12, everything came crashing down when the police came and took my father away as my mum finally got the courage to go into the police station with myself and younger brother. From then my depression spiraled out of control as I was 12 years old, never going to school, self-harming and eventually landing myself in hospital for my second suicide attempt at the age of 14. From there I spent time in hospital in a children's ward for my own safety, although I eventually came out of it by choosing to leave school and complete my year 10 at TAFE. Although I did not have a formal education, I continued to pursue my dreams of becoming an educator, completing my Certificate III, Diploma and finally obtaining my Bachelor of Early Childhood Education and Care. After working, last week I left my job due to the work culture as I felt I was not supported and their was constant bitching about fellow staff members. With this, my depression and trauma resurfaced, while thinking to myself "Is this workplace culture good for my own mental health?" In reality, I knew it was not as both my mind, body and heart knew, and I immediately left without giving my 2 weeks notice which I feel horrible about. Before making this decision I did speak about how I was feeling, as well as explaining my current feelings of depression, thinking to myself "Maybe they can provide assistance or additional support?" With that question being asked, I then knew I was completely wrong based on the response. As I am sitting here now I find myself myself thinking "Will my depression be a constant struggle?" and "Maybe I wont get anywhere in life?"

falldown7timesstandup8 Broken and tired
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Hello I have recently been diagnosed with PTSD and BPD, stemming from childhood abuse and neglect as well as being sexually assaulted twice by a "friend" as a young teen. I have a serious problem with coming back to reality when i get in, what i like... View more

Hello I have recently been diagnosed with PTSD and BPD, stemming from childhood abuse and neglect as well as being sexually assaulted twice by a "friend" as a young teen. I have a serious problem with coming back to reality when i get in, what i like to call fight or flight. I generally end up having a massive anxiety attack or sometimes, if I cant get control of that. Ill harm myself. Throughout my early 20's, at night clubs particularly, if a random guy would even just stare at me too long, I would without fail, become aggressive. I would instantly become fearful and thats when the fight or flight would come in, how ever, when it comes to men, its generally fight. The most frustrating part about all of this is i KNOW and can FEEL an episode arising and I KNOW that kind of behaviour is completely wrong, but back then, I couldnt control myself. I wanted these men to stop and leave me alone and just lacked the patience completely if they didnt listen straight away. I would just lose it, a handful of times I have turned around and used violence towards a guy for being grabby toward me, or if a guy sat down next to me i asked him to please move away, if he didnt listen that instant, the anger would just completely take over me. I did this for years. even today, i find myself grasping some what of control as I am a mum now of a three year old and i dont want to be this angry person anymore, But unfortunately recently and over the past few years I have been hurting myself through self harm, binge eating, bulemia, over exercising. I dont have parents.. sorry.. I do have parents but I havent spoken to neither of them since i was 33 weeks pregnant, because that was the day my mother assaulted me at my baby shower. She also assaulted my friends and other family members who were trying to protect my unborn child. My relationship with my parents was broken from a young age, but was destroyed when I asked for their support when I'd been raped. According to them I was a slut and probably drank too much.. I was 16 years old. I carry a lot of anger and resentment and even writing this has made me so angry. I am still on the waiting list to see a therapist but I just thought id try here.. maybe itll help. thank you so much for reading.

Sun_Rain Venting
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Hello, I have a diagnosis of PTSD and I have been partaking in emdr for almost 18 months which has been incredibly helpful. Over the last few months I have been doing really well and generally feeling good. On Saturday I heard a particular sound whil... View more

Hello, I have a diagnosis of PTSD and I have been partaking in emdr for almost 18 months which has been incredibly helpful. Over the last few months I have been doing really well and generally feeling good. On Saturday I heard a particular sound while at a cafe that triggered me. My hands were so shaky that i split bpiling hot tea down my front and created a right old scene 🤦‍.Two days later I feel irritable, withdrawn, confusedand I have had two nights of unpleasant dreams. I understand why I feel this way, I guess I just need to get it off my chest. I'm trying not to believe that I have gone "backwards" per say, though easier said than done ! Thanks for reading, I just needed to vent :).

TheBigBlue How do I tell the psychiatrist? Help!
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Hi All, I’ve had about 3 appointments in person & 1 video call & 1 phone call during the initial Covid peak with a psychiatrist. Now the psychiatrist is male, which makes me quite uncomfortable to discuss certain things. He knows there was sexual abu... View more

Hi All, I’ve had about 3 appointments in person & 1 video call & 1 phone call during the initial Covid peak with a psychiatrist. Now the psychiatrist is male, which makes me quite uncomfortable to discuss certain things. He knows there was sexual abuse when I was a child but I can’t tell him the full story. As the childhood incidents were with a male medical professional for a completely unrelated medical condition, I just feel like if I talk about it with a male I am planting the idea in other people’s head to do the same. And I’m already triggered before even going into each session because I literally relive the trauma every time I sit in a waiting room & I feel & experience all the things I felt as a terrified little girl sitting in the waiting room to see the evil doctor. On top of that, I feel extreme shame about the whole thing & I worry my feelings are an overreaction & people will think I am stupid for feeling the way I do. my psychologist is female & while it was difficult, I have been able to discuss with her all that happened. Last session with her I told how the psychiatrist was really confused because he didn’t have the whole story. The psychologist asked if I wanted her to write to him about the situation. I said yes & felt great relief, but asked that she did not copy in my entire medical team (like she has with her previous updates). Honestly, my endocrinologist & diabetes educator do not need to know this stuff. Then she got hesitant saying she could write just to him but couldn’t guarantee he wouldn’t share the information with my medical team. i can’t bring myself to tell him in person, so she suggested writing it down on a piece of paper, having him read it & then ask for the paper back. But honestly this terrifies me even more. Just thinking about sitting there in uncomfortable silence while he reads my letter sounds like the most excruciating, shameful & uncomfortable experience. I am burning with shame just thinking about it. How do I bring up the courage to either tell him or write it down for him? I am terrified. Appointment is a week away but I’m freaked about it already.

NoHope8 Psychiatrist visit
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Hi there, I tried a psychiatrist...first time in 15 years or so..after many psychologists...and I'm trying to digest her. She offered no smile, no welcome,...stony face...she asked good questions....and went into childhood...not quite what I wanted t... View more

Hi there, I tried a psychiatrist...first time in 15 years or so..after many psychologists...and I'm trying to digest her. She offered no smile, no welcome,...stony face...she asked good questions....and went into childhood...not quite what I wanted to deal with... I wanted to deal with losing my children...but thats fine and good..it's all interconnected.... I'm just unsure whether I can stomach going to someone who won't connect with me...I tried small talk afterward and she just said it sounds like you are trying to get my approval...fair call...I was trying to relate...I don't know...is this normal...I just felt disapproved of...or judged. Probably my paranoia I'm sure... I just felt nothing except a stone wall ... I just wonder where she is going and whether I can cope with that stony face again, there was no real goodbye, have a nice day...just nothing. It's hard enough for me to talk through everything I have had to go through..it's very complex and tiring...

Agenderandproudofit My Story/Introduction
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Hi, i'm agender, 21 just have to say whoever reads this some stuff that i've written is disturbing. I was born as a boy. i was raised pretty much by my father for the first 10 years of my life as my mother was a cop 24/7 then studyed for a few years ... View more

Hi, i'm agender, 21 just have to say whoever reads this some stuff that i've written is disturbing. I was born as a boy. i was raised pretty much by my father for the first 10 years of my life as my mother was a cop 24/7 then studyed for a few years at night school to be a teacher, my relationship with her from age 10 til now isn't good and has been deteriorating more each year. Growing up with my dad around was horrible he did drugs, smoked/drank heavily, was always out at parties leaving me alone at home plus i was physically abused by him from age 6 to 15 for reasons that i still have no idea why even today which as a result left me with PTSD. I was diagnosed with mild Autism at the age of 3 from then til age 15 i had a countless number of speech therapists, psychologists, psychiatrists etc. School whether if it was primary or high was very traumatic had hardly any friends (only 1) i was bullied heavily and physically abused by teachers and students. From age 10 til now my life's been a misery i did drugs from age 10 to 21. I was an alcoholic for a while, i decided at one point that i had to go to rehab which did wonders and i've been off drugs and alcohol since then. But after wrecking my brain with the drugs and alcohol over that long period of time i've noticed that i hulicinate, can't walk properly (straight) and that i always make quiet random noises and talk to myself without thinking it. I'm also suicidal my last attempt was last month as a result i lost my relationship with my second family as soon as i told them, i always call helplines when i feel suicidal. Just to finish it off i've now got no friends and don't talk to my family at all, whoever reads this and can relate to this just know that you're not alone.