Tired

[Delectable]

I’m tired of a lot of things, of doing this thing called life alone. I chose not to have children after living a traumatic childhood till I was 13 and placed in stare care. I never experienced love from my family or my past boyfriends. I have spent my entire life feeling never good enough for people, in the last fifteen years after I left a relationship I have felt more distant then ever. I worked as much as possible so I was either tired and didn’t think about the loneliness. I lot a few contracts and started baking, giving the food away when I could afford to do so. I’ve rented for the last 15 years and have had to do one bad move which was very hard on me giving away a beautiful harden and accessories to people I thought were friends but users in the end as I only live 30kns away and they choose to have nothing to do with me. I only work one day now and am struggling with filling in time, I do exercise every day for an hour, but there’s still over 13 hours to fill in. As i live in Victoria near NSW I’m stuck because of the coronavirus in Melbourne and not allowed out of my state though my area hadn’t had any cases for 90 days.

Tired of making friends to be let down by then, one life friend said speak to the psychologist, so I speak once every 6 weeks. I really don’t see much point continuing my life, there’s only so much one can take and I feel like ending my life especially iff I cannot go to Queensland in December for Christmas which I have not had Christmas for over 35 years with anyone. I do not take drugs or drink alcohol, just extremely overtired of my living.

[Guest_1643]

my grandmother had another name for Chrusciki but they were amazing

i have seen similar in an italian bakery in melbourne

every time i see them i buy them in honour of my grandmother

if you ever see these beautiful doughnuts in a bakery i encourage you to try, Delectable. They are amazing.

[Delectable]

Trdelnicky, I’m glad the surgery let you go... that’s poor service to let you make an appointment and then cancel on you. I’m not much of a deep fry oil eater, if I ever see them I will try half for you. There’s a great polish bakery in Melbourne.

[Delectable]

Verhuny?

kukurini?

Faworki?

Khvorost?

[Guest_1643]

Hi Delectable I dont eat much fried food either same as you
But I like these and hope u enjoy half if u ever find them

My best friend I met in a mental health hospital last year had no family or friends at all

Hed been drug addicted for years..... They ddi everything to help him recover. Who's to say who is important or who isn't? you are important to us here and important to the people you care and cook for. I'd love it if someone cooked for me- it's the simplest and most beautiful human kindness.

It's a little more complicated with the GP - I see another doctor usually at the same clinic but was trying to change to this new one. The new one technically doesnt see new patients. I had to try really hard to get in - and they tried to cancel me and move me to my previous GP. They thought I wouldn't mind but I did.

You have to advocate for urself because the health system is sorely disappointing. If they didnt take ur referall twice, call them and tell them you've sent it twice. That way you will show them that you value urself and expect better. You do deserve help. Maybe the psych could hep with getting linked in to other services and give you a proper opinion on some of the stuff the psychologist said but she wasn't sure about.

[Guest_1643]

hi D the last one sounds familiar but I can't remember

it was so many years ago.

I really loved my grandmothers food

She made everything from scratch, and only very rarely bought somthing ready-made.
She worked in a european bakery herself.
She was very traditional and sweet.

Have u been making anything nice?

[Delectable]

No more food, there’s no one else to give it to and I’m on a strict diet , the fast 800 as I need to lose weight. See the nurse about my endometriosis today and then I have to try physiotherapist which I really hope won’t make my pain worse, just trying to keep to myself more then ever now.

[Delectable]

This is the year from hell,back to a permit system because of Sydney people. Why can’t the areas affected stay at home, why do they have to escape? You’re ruining other people lives with your selfish needs, just damn well stay at home in the town or suburb you live. How hard is it

[Delectable]

Living on the Victorian NSW border is the worse place to be living, we cop all the bullshit from the city people in Melbourne or Sydney this time, it’s normally a 5 min trip across the border not an hour one. Thanks Sydney., you should be in a hard lockdown in your own city, not allowed to leave within 5 kms. The border is a 6 hour trip away and us in the country again have to pay for your selfish mistakes.

[Delectable]

It’s Sydney this time, once again we’re paying the price for city mistakes living on the border as they want to escape and be with their families in Victoria, bad luck ...STAY AT HOME...we are going back to long delays crossing the border because of Sydney people this time. We have to be checked even though we live 6 hours from Sydney because there’s always someone from the city doing the wrong thing

[Delectable]

The Sydney people will more then likely have left today to roam around Vic, as they can do what they want before midnight. The whole thing is a joke, special rules for some yet others get to do what they like, all rules should be the same regardless if you’re rich or poor, black or white.