Tired

[Delectable]

I’m tired of a lot of things, of doing this thing called life alone. I chose not to have children after living a traumatic childhood till I was 13 and placed in stare care. I never experienced love from my family or my past boyfriends. I have spent my entire life feeling never good enough for people, in the last fifteen years after I left a relationship I have felt more distant then ever. I worked as much as possible so I was either tired and didn’t think about the loneliness. I lot a few contracts and started baking, giving the food away when I could afford to do so. I’ve rented for the last 15 years and have had to do one bad move which was very hard on me giving away a beautiful harden and accessories to people I thought were friends but users in the end as I only live 30kns away and they choose to have nothing to do with me. I only work one day now and am struggling with filling in time, I do exercise every day for an hour, but there’s still over 13 hours to fill in. As i live in Victoria near NSW I’m stuck because of the coronavirus in Melbourne and not allowed out of my state though my area hadn’t had any cases for 90 days.

Tired of making friends to be let down by then, one life friend said speak to the psychologist, so I speak once every 6 weeks. I really don’t see much point continuing my life, there’s only so much one can take and I feel like ending my life especially iff I cannot go to Queensland in December for Christmas which I have not had Christmas for over 35 years with anyone. I do not take drugs or drink alcohol, just extremely overtired of my living.

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Ingredients
500 gfloury potatoes, such as spunta, peeled, cut into large pieces
125 gbutter
4onions, finely chopped
250 gfarmer’s cottage cheese (see Note)
sour cream and finely chopped dill (optional), to serve
Pierogi dough
335 g(2¼ cups) plain flour
1 tbspfinely chopped dill
1egg, lightly beaten 55g
Cook's notes
Oven temperatures are for conventional; if using fan-forced (convection), reduce the temperature by 20˚C. | We use Australian tablespoons and cups: 1 teaspoon equals 5 ml; 1 tablespoon equals 20 ml; 1 cup equals 250 ml. | All herbs are fresh (unless specified) and cups are lightly packed. | All vegetables are medium size and peeled, unless specified.
Instructions
Resting time 15 minutes
Place potatoes in a pan of cold, salted water and bring to the boil. Cook for 10 minutes or until tender. Drain well, then place in a large bowl and mash until smooth. Set aside to cool.
Melt butter in a large frying pan over medium–high heat. Add onions and cook, stirring, for 10 minutes or until soft and golden. Season with salt, then cool.
Meanwhile, to make dough, combine flour, dill and a generous pinch of salt in a large bowl. Make a well in the centre, then pour in egg and 125 ml (½ cup) warm water. Using a fork, mix until combined, adding a little more water if necessary. The dough should be soft but not sticky. Turn out onto a lightly floured surface and knead for 5 minutes or until smooth and elastic. Divide dough into 3, then place in a bowl and cover with plastic wrap. Set aside for 15 minutes to rest.
Add cottage cheese to mashed potato, then use a slotted spoon to add one-quarter of the onions. Using your hands, mix until well combined. Season well with salt and pepper.

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Lightly dust a work surface with flour. Roll out each piece of dough until 2 mm thick. Using a 9 cm round pastry cutter, cut 8 rounds from each piece, discarding excess. Place 1 tbsp potato mixture in the centre of each round. Using a pastry brush dipped in water, brush around the edge of the dough, then fold over to enclose the filling, pressing gently to remove any air pockets. Lightly crimp edges at 1 cm intervals, if desired.
Bring a large saucepan of salted water to the boil. Reduce heat to a vigorous simmer. Cook pierogi, in 4 batches, for 3 minutes or until they are cooked through and have risen to the surface. Remove with a slotted spoon.
Reheat remaining onions over low heat, add pierogi and toss for 1 minute or until coated and heated through. Serve immediately with sour cream and dill, if desired.
enjoy Sleepy.

[Guest_1643]

Thanks D looks delicious and yum

[Guest_1643]

beautiful dish

great recipes -thanks

Beautiful day here in melbourne, clear skies and warm.
I bought some new tops today at a warehouse - three colourful bright tops.
summer's coming so needed a few light things... it will get really hot soon here!

Hope u've had a nice day

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Thanks Sleepy, have been organising daily passes for the new permit, pain in the butt it is. The fines should be higher then $1000, more like $5000 and people would do the right thing, apparently there’s no checkpoint but time will tell with the Sydney numbers. Really don’t think many people have learnt much from this in NSW....I’m just staying at home, I’m over strangers wishing me merry Christmas, I’m half tempted to say you know not everyone has a wonderful Christmas and maybe it would be nice to drop the c word.

[Guest_1643]

hey D i never wish ppl happy xmas because i dont know if they celebrate... i guess ppl mean well though

i do love to wish ppl a good week or good weekend though, as that's universal.

This time of year is harsher for many ppl and being wished all these warm wishes like they're excited for the time and assume it's fun - i can see how that could hurt.

[Delectable]

Yes, I love Christmas but can never celebrate by myself, it’s the 36th christmas alone and I’m rather over it and all of December Christmas is shoved in your face by retail.... I’d actually wish I could sleep the whole month away.

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Just overa lot of things, the way I get treated from strangers to medical. Turns out it’s highly unlikely I’m going to get a hysterectomy as I have to have hormone treatment or an iud first. I’m so sick of the endometriosis pain and the negative impact it’s had on my life for the last 8 years, I’m not some guinea pig, I want the pain removed for good,.

[Guest_1643]

hey D it sounds like u are retraumatised by the system which is broken and unhelpful
There is good help out there but the process to find it is often demeaning and horrible

ppl don't tell u this or accept it when u tell them, which is a form of abuse.

I hope u find someone to care about and support you as you've been working so hard to get where u need to be. Sorry to read about the horrible endo pain. Stay strong

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I still don’t have a psych appointment, I rang again and they said the go didn’t write 219 on the referral and they have asked the surgery twice to do so yet the surgery say they haven’t any notifications... it’s just another waste of time, my name must be blacklisted.