Hi
I’m really struggling with my son, he has always been a difficult child but he has gone through so much medically I’m just constantly being triggered by anything that’s out of normal, When he was 2 he was diagnosed with Autism that was hard to deal with, then at 7 he was diagnosed with leukaemia which caused a lot of ptsd for me he is in remission however constant stress from the fear of relapse is destroying me. He is having anxiety issues now where he panics over food, this has been triggering me really bad as I’m worried it’s relapse. I’m now struggling to get close to him as I’m afraid something will be wrong with him. I hate this feeling, I’m getting so angry at him even though It’s not his fault but I don’t know how to deal with anymore issues with him anymore. I’m just drained of any happiness as my mind is constantly thinking of relapse, autism, school difficulties, blood testing, check ups, how is he going to be when he is older, how to help, how to stop him not eating. I’m at the end of my tether. I don’t know what else to do.
