Please help..

[Somebodyhelp]

Hello, I was wondering if anyone had advice or guidance they could share with me...

I am the adult version of a child who suffered at the hands of my Narc mother. I realise at this point in my life there is seriously something wrong with me. I am seeing a psychologist as I want help and I am hoping they can help me, help myself so I can become "normal" again.

Anyway, I have just been thinking.. and I think I have found where one of my biggest problems are. I seem to be completely unattached from my thoughts and feelings. I can't seem to work out what my ACTUAL thoughts are on something. I talk (a lot) and I catch myself thinking about thinking...It is very hard to explain... its like I don't actually know how I think or feel about anything ! I can say a million different things and I pick one because I think that's what I'm feeling, and then it changes. It confuses me and I'm 100% sure it confuses whoever is listening to me. I don't know how to describe this but.. I don't really know who or what I am, I don't know what I think and feel. I don't know anything! It would appear on the outside like I am always changing my opinion or how I feel .. but I'm not really sure of it in the first place! I talk in a lots of FACTS because those I am sure of. I am sure I come across rude and blunt but Ijust state facts and hope the other person can understand what I mean. I'm not sure about anything.. I don't seem to be able to think like normal people or be so sure of what I'm saying is what I actually think. is this some type of personality disorder?

[RobbieP]

Hey Somebody,

Welcome to BB forums,

This must be truly fraustrating for you, I know what your going through, I have PTSD, and moods and thoughts go wayward all the time, but what I found was by doing mindfulness techniques helped me to recover most of thinking and decision making.

You have made the right step by seeing someone, and they will help you understand what you need to do. If at any time BB has amazing services on the website that I have used plenty of times.

Try not to overthink and take the time to listen to your brain and relax, we are always here at BB, take are of your self

Robbie