Not coping at all

[Kbet]

Not coping at all today .. seriously thought of driving myself to hospital and checking myself into the psyche ward. No one wants to know that I'm not ok. Not even I want to know. I just want it to be over ..I want the pain and emptiness to stop .. I'm the only one awake in my house ..I want to disappear into the night and never come back. I want my mind to stop racing..no sleep no peace ..Im broken 

[HelenM]

Hi Kbet    

I'm sorry you're feeling so awful. Do you have family you can turn to for support, or have you got a good doctor you can see?    I'm sorry I can't offer any other advice.  

Take care, Helen 

[Guest_5218]

Hi Kbet.  Night times are always worst, arent they?  You feel alone, you cant sleep, all the bad things seem to be magnified.  And that applies to both mental and physical pain.  Perhaps in the light of day, you will feel a little better.  If not, then you should definitely seek further help.  You could try contacting the BB Support Service first, and see what they recommend.  The number is on the top of this page.  If you still feel as bad as you did overnight, definitely call them...........  They are there to help, so dont hesitate.

Please take care of yourself.

Sherie xx

[Kazzl]

Hi Kbet, sorry you're feeling so bad. I know you were really struggling around Christmas, have things got worse? It's a hard time of year, especially when your family aren't being supportive.

Have you started your list? New Year's is a good time to do that. Can you try to draw a line through last year and look ahead, to what you want? 

Did you get an appointment with a psychiatrist? 

Hang in there hun, I know that sounds cliched, and easy for someone else to say. But you can. I think Sherie's idea of contacting the BB Support Service is good. Writing stuff down helps, but there's nothing like a kind human voice. 

Stay in touch Kbet. We can't resolve things for you, but we can hold your hand through this. Thinking of you mate.

Kaz

xx

[Neil_1]

Dear Kbet

Ok, so a day has gone by since you posted – I hope that
things have turned even a tiny bit better for you.

You received some beautiful posts in response and there was
some really excellent advice and words given. 


The trouble with this time of year for a lot of things is
the ‘close down’ or shortened hours kind of thing, but I hope that you’ve been
able to contact someone at least from Beyond Blue, to have that ‘friendly chat’.

Would love to hear from you again as I dare say would the
other wonderful people who posted.

Kind regards

Neil

[Kbet]

Hi Helen,

I don't really have any family I can turn to. I have turned to them and told them how this is effecting my life but they are all too busy to offer any advice or support. I am all on my own. I have no really close friends or anyone to really talk to that I can count on. Thanks for your lovely post and for at least caring enough to comment. I appreciate it.

Kbet

[Kbet]

Hi Sherie,

Yes night times are difficult. All of my traumatic incidents happened at night or when I was sleeping so therefore. Sleep isn't my friend. Nightmares plague my nights and horror movies fill my days. It just feels like I never have any rest from it. I am exhausted. I haven't phone Beyond Blue. I feel stupid phoning them when I am like this. My mind just cant string anything together I feel so jumbled. I don't know what to do about any of it anymore.

Thank you for replying and caring enough to read my post .. I appreciate it.

Take Care

Kbet

[El_Guapo]

Dear Kbet,

so sorry that you are facing this all alone, 22 years ago I did eighteen months of it until I lost myself in the torment. Have faith and pray, I am so sorry that I can not wave a magic wand and make this all pain disappear for everyone during those horrid moments.

Thinking of you and wishing you peace and rest.

Mingo.

[Kbet]

Hi Kaz,

Thanks for replying to my post. Christmas was extremely hard and it just snowball from there. My husband isn't being as supportive as e could be. He keeps saying he doesn't know what to do to help me but makes more and more demands of me as a person and all I can think of right now is trying to get better. I just feel like a boiling pot ready to boil over... I just don't know how to describe it.

I have seen my psychologist but she hasn't referred me to a psychiatrist yet. She wants to start CBT next session so I have no idea what will happen from there. I am writing stuff down all the time. I even got a new journal but I still internalising everything. I hope today finds you well.

Thanks so much for commenting and caring. I appreciate it.

Take Care.

Kbet

[Neil_1]

Dear Kbet

I’m sorry that things aren’t much (or any) better for you at this time.

I am glad though that you have at least seen your psych.  Do you feel she is supportive of you?

I wish I could say something constructive to help you out at this time, but I just wanted to say that I’m thinking of you and hope that things are just a little better today.

Kind regards

Neil