My Darling Dog Will Be Euthenized Soon

[Guest_1573]

I have a dear dog whom I rescued from a horrible place in May 2020. She is now 9 years old. She is the light and love of my life. Two weeks ago she seemed to be unbalanced and a long story short I have taken her to the vet 4 times since then. She has had numerous tests and ultrasounds and the vet is not giving me any answers.

In the last two days she has been lying in the bathroom which she never does. She has been having tremors and crying in her sleep. Although the vet doesn't know what is wrong they have put her on strong painkillers. When she has these she doesn't show pain but sleeps.

She is not drinking water and is very out of sorts. I feel it is time to put her out of this misery. The vet wants to do an MRI at a cost of $5000.00. I have spent $1600 at the vet in the last 9 days.

I am besides myself as I feel she has had a stroke or has a brain tumour yet the vet keeps stringing me along. At the end of the day I truly believe she is showing all the signs of a poor animal at the end of her life.

I am so torn. I barely sleep, I put her on my bed at night and she is often panting, crying in her sleep or having tremors. I am so upset and anxious and I guess I just want someone to make that decision for me. Which I know is not going to happen.

I rang my local vet and told them what has been going on (they were not aware as I had to take dear doggy to emergency vet throughout all of this). They were very kind and said to me that if I truly feel it is time to take here there anytime and they will look after her....

I am so scared that if I do this it might be too early? Yet deep down I know something very wrong is going on with her....I am falling apart. I love her so much. She had a terrible life until I rescued her. I hate life. It is so terrible and unfair.

I have been crying almost constantly daily. Please someone help. Thankyou.

[Matchy69]

I am so sorry you had to give up hazel and am sorry that your son is really struggling.It is really being parent with are children this.Having no support from the father makes it harder.I am glad you rung lifeline and hope they had some advice that could help you.It really is so hard for you and my heart goes out to you with your struggles.

[mmMekitty]

I am so sorry for how things are so difficult, & you have to make such difficult choices. I want to assure you, there is no hate from me, nor from anyone here , I would dare say. If someone does, they have absolutely no reason to.

I hope Life Line is of some help to you. & I think Sophie_M has other good advice, too.

All my best wishes for the new job.

Take care, & be kind to yourself. It was really great of you to take on Hazel the way you did.

mmMekitty

[Guest_1573]

My son has calmed down a lot and has an appt with a psychologist next week.

Hazel was desexed today. When I left her there I cried the whole way home as she was so distressed. When I went to pick her her up she was totally out of it in the cage. When she heard me she cried. That was when I pulled myself together and realised I love her and I cannot put her through more disruption and fear. I told my son he was the reason I was vacillating and he has PROMISED me he will behave. I cannot let her go. I love her so much.

Thanks to you all for your lovely kind words and support. I am feeling so relieved as I did not ever want to let her go. It was all because of the overwhelming dramas my son has put me through.

I did ask the foster group if they could find a foster home for my son? Haha!

She is still quite out of it but is asleep on my son's bed! They love each other. I need to persist. For all our sakes.

xxx

[mmMekitty]

I hope your son continues to be more settled. & I still hope (so happy you can keep Hazel), having Hazel will be a good influence on him, if he can appreciate how she will accept him & needs him too. I think, you can all be good for each other.

I wonder, would you consider having sessions with your son, together, to work on your relationship with him? I get the impression, it is very strained between you.& now he's nearly 18, he & you could (& probably should) negotiate a better relationship wip between you. Someone, like a psychologist may be able to help facilitate conversations with you, so it doesn't become shouting & arguing & blaming or anything like that. What do you think of my thoughts here.

Kindest regards,

mmMekitty

[Guest_1573]

Hazel is fully recovered and back to her usual hilarious self! She is such a darling!

I will be speaking with my GP about getting some counselling for myself. I also really hope the sessions my son attends make a positive difference to him.

Thankyou for your support. xx

[Guest_1573]

I have put a pic of darling Hazel as my profile pic; I hope it works! xx

[mmMekitty]

Oh, lovely! (from what little I can see, even after much zooming - me not your photo, I'm sure), she does look very happy, with bright, intellengent eyes & I think I can just about feel her nose nudging me. 😺

mmMekitty.

[Matchy69]

Hazel looks so adorable

[Guest_1573]

Darling Hazel is absolutely adorable! She is so cute, affectionate and funny! She does this hilarious thing where she opens her mouth then just sits there; looking very dopey! Also lots of zooming around in the back yard. I took her for her first proper outing today and she absolutely loved it. She needs a lot of training as has no recall and gets terribly excited when sees other dogs but I know I will get there! She is a total love. And yes; she does that nudging business if she thinks I am not paying her enough attention?

She had a porterhouse steak last night; stole it from the counter....who could blame her! 🙂 She also loves sardines and tuna. She is living the high life.....minced chicken, steak, high quality all the way! That is what she deserves!

xx Thanks for loving her xx I certainly do! xxxxx

[Guest_1573]

She spent yesterday at the vet as she somehow popped her stitches 😞 She is ok now. She is very very boisterous and she needs so much training and exercise. The organisation keep promising training etc but nothing is forthcoming. It is quite stressful. I honestly think she is better suited to a family who are energetic and have the motivation! I am still going through a lot of drama with my son and I am still floundering over what to do. The fact I love her is apparent. But I also have to look after myself and right now I feel 'got at' by her and my son. I spoke to the organisation and they again reiterated I am under no obligation of any kind. Of course if I decide to have her adopted out I will feel bad..I would feel bad if I asked for another foster carer for her. But if I cave in and adopt her I am going to be strung out as she has had no training and I start work next week. Son driving me insane. I think the writing is on the wall. Whatever happens she will be looked after and loved. Possibly not by me 😞 Of course I love her...that is not in question. My sanity is.

I feel yet again that no matter what I do it always mucks up. I think I have to stop doing things for everyone and everything else and concentrate on me. I have gained so much weight. I have lost all care factor. Everyday is a drama with son and her to be honest. No peace in this house!

So I will take care of her until her wound is healed and I will still love her! But she will be going to another carer or being adopted out. I will lose my mind if I don't get some peace and quiet and time to myself. Call me selfish...it has to be this way.