Sounds like it’s really rough right now. Hugs to you.
Does talking to lifeline help? Please don’t hesitate to ring them if you need support or 000 in an emergency.
I hope you are able to at least sleep. A good night’s sleep would be really helpful right now.
Kittens are totally gorgeous but a lot of work and an enormous commitment. I like the idea of fostering a cat —at least until you’re feeling a bit better.
After my last dog died it took me a year to be ready to get another. But so glad I did.
I’m so happy that you found the videos and that it made you feel safe.
I’m sure that you and your cat had many precious moments over the time you were together. I think it’s lovely that you could care for your pet in her/his later years. It would be so sad for any animal to be alone when old and vulnerable.
I think it’s great that you found a grief counsellor. Perhaps if you gently provide the counsellor with some feedback it will become a more positive experience for you.
I hear you with regard to blame and guilt. My advice is to let it go. I know that’s easier said than done but just keep working on it. You’ll get there.
