Hi again Sj;
I truly understand how hard it can be to find the right psych for you. Sometimes it takes a lot of money too.
Mostly, psych's listen intently so you can talk; that's where all the best info comes from...you.
You really need to ask for what you want from them and discuss therapy options and what they mean and; try to make some ground rules.
E.g...I like someone to challenge me with hard questions and then let me take time to respond. My psych is brilliant at this. Also, it takes time and effort from both to get to know and trust each other. By this I mean, she knows I'll be honest and open if I'm unhappy or confused about her demeanour. (I make sure I'm tactful and respectful too, she deserves that much)
I asked if I could see her notes once due to feeling she wasn't writing down exactly what I'd said and was paraphrasing. She immediately gave me her file to read; she did write my words, not hers.
It's a relationship, so it might work or it might not. If you feel uncomfortable, say so. It could just be your own hypervigilance (PTSD) that's causing issues. Without bringing it up though, you'll never know and may have problems with all psych's.
I wish you well for future visits...
Sara
