Dear New Member~
I"l like to welcome you here to the Forum and think you must have done a wonderful job to get your get your husband to the point you are at now.
To get someone to admit a habit concerning porn as a problem is a huge step, and shows trust and confidence in you, and for him to accept therapy and take action to remove himself from porn is far more that a first step.
I would think having CPTSD and trauma would have had an enormous effect on your life, not surprising as it involves you being badly injured - not something that quickly goes away. The discovery of your husband's habit would have been a great shock, both in terms of trusting him, and repugnance . Plus maybe a feeling you were not enough. That of course is simply not true.
From what I can gather porn is a coping mechanism that may well have started well before he met you and become embedded into an addiction. Like any addiction it requires the person concerned really wants to quit, there is skilled guidance and therapy, less opportunity and support both clinically and at home.
This last may be the most difficult for you. Any addiction tends not to be shut off straight away, but had gains and occasionally slips, and during these encouragement or praise can make a big difference to the outcome.
It seems totally unfair that part of this burden should fall on you, you really do deserve better. All of this of course puts extra strain on the relationship in other ways, you no longer have the partner you thought you had, or the ability to rely upon him in the same way as before.
May I ask if you are trying to cope by yourself or if you have support? It is a difficult subject to talk about, however is there anyone, family member or friend you can talk frankly with and lean on?
As a person who has lived though traumatic events and has PTSD I found clinical and home support were very necessary to my reaching the better stage I'm at now, and quite apart from your husband's problem I'd thing similar support could greatly assist you.
If you would like to come back and talk more that would be great
Croix
