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Humiliated

G12345
Community Member
I feel emotionally humiliated because of my history of sexual abuse and I sometimes feel like I deserved what happened to me as an innocent child why I wasn't believed is why I blame i don't understand what I did to deserve a life where I don't feel free can anybody relate.
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ecomama
Valued Contributor
Valued Contributor

Dear G12345

I'm really glad you've found the forums, please open up here. It's a safe and supportive space.

I'm also very grateful that you have some MH professionals you can share with.
This is VERY important for your recovery.

If you're determined to recover you will.

I can see you beginning to recover in one single word you used... "crime".
YES this was a crime, one of the vilest imaginable.

You were a victim of this crime repeated on you.

This may sound like a simple separation but it's an important one.
Often victims of SA take responsibility for this crime. Perpetrators groom their victims to make them take responsibility.

100% responsibility lies with the criminal, 100% of the time and 100% forever.

Not you.
You were a child.
Even if you were an adult and this happened, it would still not be your fault.

Please KNOW that you are not receiving negative attention.
You are receiving POSITIVE attention to help heal you for a very negative series of crimes that someone else did.

Like Grandy, Not_Batman and Geoff, I wish I could hug you right now and cry with you.
We are all with you in your journey.
There are people who care!
Crying is healing.

The 1800RESPECT Trauma Psychologists have been amazing for me and in turn my family who are trying to recover from extreme abuse and trauma, including the SA of my youngest daughter.

If you call, you can ask the Counsellor to put you through to a trauma psych ANY TIME of the day or night. 24/7/366.

Always here for you.

Take strength from us and those around you by knowing we all really care!

The only responsibility YOU need to take, is getting as much strength and power and moving forward in your healing journey.

Love EM

G12345
Community Member

Thank you for your kind words I really appreciate this postive support I do feel scared I did a suicide course today I learnt a lot it triggered me a little bit but I felt safe learning about it some more I went walking I sometimes feel scared because of what happened to me and I always feel like it could happen again I scared it will and I’ll feel humiliated all over again

Hey G12345,

Thank you so much for keeping the community updated on how you've been going, and we're glad to hear that you felt safe during your course today, although did feel triggered at some points. We can hear that this must be really difficult to cope with, and we're so sorry to hear that you've been worried about this happening again. Please know that you never have to go through this alone, and as many caring members on the forums have mentioned, there are supports available to you anytime, day or night, to talk through these feelings whenever things are becoming overwhelming. The kind and understanding counsellors at 1800RESPECT (1800 737 732), our Beyond Blue Support Service (1300 22 4636), and Lifeline (13 11 14) are here for you 24/7 during difficult moments like these, and you can reach out as often as you need.

Our wonderful community is here for you G12345, and we hope that you keep checking back in to let us know how you're feeling whenever you are ready.

Ggrand
Community Champion
Community Champion

Hello G12345,

I’m also pleased that you felt safe after the course you done today..,That would have taken a lot of courage to do the course.,you are very brave.,and I’m so proud of you...

Walking is good to clear your mind...I can relate to how you feel scared sometimes walking by yourself....Do you someone you trust that can go walking with you?..A family member, friend or your support worker....

Talk here anytime lovely G12345....We are here for you when you feel to talk...

Be gentle and very kind to you dear G..

My most caring and kindest thoughts...G12345.

Grandy..

ecomama
Valued Contributor
Valued Contributor

Hey Gee

It's amazing you did that Course today and stayed even though you felt triggered.
I am REALLY impressed!

It can feel that way when we're alone, the fears can resurface, but over time as we stay safe and even more time passes, we may be more vigilant than others may be when we do things like go for a walk but it will get better for you.

I promise.

You're doing all the great things for your recovery.

I know it's not quite that simple but you're doing all you can, so you can be very proud of yourself just like we are all proud of you too!

WELL DONE!

Love EM

G12345
Community Member
I’m sick of feeling fear and I feel like I bought it on myself as if I’d damage myself my ex girlfriend it’s all her fault I’ll never forgive her she’s a monster and she took my innocence away and freedom gone she now has to follow a set of legal rules regarding me and if she doesn’t she gets in trouble for breaching the protection order