Hi whenwewereyoung and warm welcome to our forums
It's good you've found your way to our supportive and caring community. There's no pressure for you to disclose anything you don't want to. So no need for you to apologise. You are safe here.
You've asked a very good question and it's one I've asked myself over and over again. Those flashes of past events, or as I see them - photos really. Over the past 10 years I've had a lot of different forms of therapy. None of which could conclusively confirm or deny the flashes I was having. Not being able to confirm this has been a big source of anxiety for me. It's left me feeling guilty, ashamed, angry and crazy. Can you relate to any of these feelings?
With the help of one of my psychologists I had to either accept or reject these flashes. Her thoughts were - why on earth would I create such a horrible, elaborate and terrifying story about what happened.
So, I chose to accept my memories and to work through these. One by one until they became a video. It was a terrifying experience and one I don't wish to ever repeat. It took many years of piecing together the fragments (pictures). The thing I'm left with is I never saw a picture of how I got home. I created one (I had too) that was possible.
The trauma caused the amensia and fragmentation of my memory. The paths in my brainwaves (neurotransmitters) are healing and creating new pathways to help recover. I did this with the work of my psychologists using different methods - not just one single therapy. Over the years I've been given lots of tools to help manage my fragmented mind, feelings and emotions.
How are you feeling about not knowing whether the events in your life are true or not? No pressure to share if you don't want to.
Kind regards
PamelaR
