Feel lonely. Made friends on another forum over many years, contributed for free willingly with sometimes no recognition but I did it for the love it. Was to quote them "an important, valued member", even at times staff had mentioned me that I would be suitable to apply for different roles.
Then they banned me, took it all away from me. Initially for a short time and then about 3/4 in, they decided to continue the ban to make it permanent - this was because I was left with no support, so I was upset and asking them when I coukd come back - this to them was a signal I was too difficult and needed to be gone forever. Its been 8 months, and 6 of those in an appeals process that went basically nowhere. I will only get access if I do what they want and even if do that step, it will be at least one year from now away with no actual lock in if I will be allowed back - pending technology apparently. So basically... they said you can come back on this date, then they said don't come back, then they said ok you can if you do this one thing which if you do it will take this into 2027, if in 2027 you show us you did this task you MAYBE can come back but we arent sure yet. But hey, lets put a little goodbye post up on the forums on behalf of you, change it so its not exacty what you wrote, don't allow you to reply to any comments and hope you dont miss your friends. Friends you've made over 10 years.
Just because things can be going well, doesnt mean I can hold it together all of the time and right now I am not. They are not helping.
The higher parties I sent this too decided it was out of their jurisitican - which is funny because I got to that complaints comission THROUGH that awful organisations website.
So thanks, you've made an already isolated, vulnerable person more isolated and vulnerable.. all becuase I am too hard. But i somehow wasnt too hard when I was volunteering my time and energy into the organisation? So I was *used*. I am a vulnerable member of society an Aboriginal person with mental health challenges and a diagonsed disability and I was used, with no apology or recognition of any hurt caused. A carrot was waved in front of me, I was supported for a couple of years under a new model I helped build... but in 2026 its too much work.
So sick of hearing taht I'm too hard work.
