conflicted

[startingnew]

i have a bad sexual past but i wont get into that nor would i like to- but in short it wasnt the way i planned it or liked it either

i was watching a movie and it had a sex secene in it and usually i would look away and cringe but this time it was like my body was yearning for it- ive also ahd a pleasureable dream before too
i havent acted on these desires- and ive just ignored them and im hoping they subside

i am quite embarassed about it
i dont think these are normal are they?

[gld]

Hi startingnew,

I feel there is nothing to be embarrassed about and most of us experience pleasureable feelings like this from time to time. These sorts of things are part of our makeup to assist us to be attracted to others. You mentioned "you haven't acted on these desires", it is more important to realise you are normal to have these feelings.

Be kind to yourself and give yourself time to feel comfortable to find companionship you desire.

Gen

[kanga_brumby]

startingnew gld got it in one it is quite normal to be stimulated watching a sex scene. Some people even pleasure themselves watching others doing it. If its not illegal you've done nothing wrong. Just don't force yourself on others.

Kanga

[startingnew]

it feels wrong as im a female and its not often you hear that us women do act on theese desires by themselves and i dont think im veru comfortable with me doing that

it very embarassing for me

[startingnew]

as i meantion to GLD

im a female and its awkward for me to even think like this

there is no chance is would force myself onto anyone nor do i have any itentions of it

the only option for me esp atm would be to do it myself which is even weired for me and something that i wouldnt feel comfortable doing