When buttons get pushed

[Speak Your Truth]

Can anyone help ? My buttons have been pushed to the point of bringing on severe anxiety. Does anyone think this is curable ? I am desperate to feel relaxed and at peace again and to be able to enjoy my life. I don’t know how to cope

[Birdy77]

Yeah I understand SYT,

if only I could share with you my lovely partner.

She makes me feel like the most important person in the world. On a daily basis! Geeze I have nothing to complain about ...

[Speak Your Truth]

No no no Birdy 😳. I don’t want your partner, don’t worry 😅. I want my own partner - I’ve never met him, but haven’t quite given up yet

[Birdy77]

I didn't mean that!! I didn't mean that at all, sorry 😱

You have a busy day coming up ... are you socialising today?

[Speak Your Truth]

That was my little attempt at humour Birdy 😉 - first time in what feels like forever.

Yes I have a couple of places to be, people to be with today, but it’s not nice out there and I’d rather be in bed.

[Birdy77]

Hello SYT,

How are you today, and did you enjoy being out and about?

I have been feeling very sad and sorry for myself today, so hopefully tomorrow will be a better day ...

Have you heard anything back from your cousin?

Hope you are doing ok SYT.

🌻birdy

[Speak Your Truth]

Hi Birdy.

why are/were you sad 😞 and sorry 😢 for yourself today ? Is the grief of loosing your chookie still coming out ? Whatever the reason, I’m sending you a 🤗 and 💐to go with a cuppa ☕️ made with extra special care and attention for you.

i haven’t had a good day either. The weather is horrible and I woke up feeling down and had to force myself to move to get out earlier than I wanted to and just felt worse as the day went progressed. The first lot of people I met were fine, it was me that wasn’t. The next time I just met one person and it was not a success for me. I couldn’t wait to leave. It took me hours to start feeling “just ok”.

Even worse nasty very cold weather ☔️❄️🌧💨 coming so not looking forward to that. It will be so easy to stay in bed 🛏

yes heard from cousin. My first thought was he and his family are just as bad communicators as me and mine. I haven’t been good communicating with them because when I did it wasn’t easy, so lost motivation for trying. We will meet up, but have some time yet to work out “the how” of it all.

im so tired.

good night 💤 😴 Birdy

[Birdy77]

Hello SYT🌞

Are you feeling any better?

Sorry you had a crappy time the other day ... was the one-on-one meeting with your new potential friend?

Horrible weather sure makes it hard to leave the house, I know.

So, it's good you heard back from your cousin ... do they want to stay with you?

I am ok ... I have bad days and I have good days. I have a lot of sadness and grief that I haven't released, about a lot of stuff, mostly about some stuff that went down a few years ago ... at the time, I had to be a soldier and keep on. Now things have calmed down and I am safe and warm and comfy in my life, I am coming apart at the seams sometimes!

Anyway, I am having a better day, haven't achieved a lot but am alright.

Hope you are ok too.

🌻birdy

[Birdy77]

Hello SYT,

Just checking to see if you are ok?

🌻birdy

[Speak Your Truth]

Thanks for your two replies Birdy. Yes I’m ok and I hope you are too. Just tired as usual and not feeling very talkative (I’m SO over all this).

Not that long since winter started and its very cold today - there’s so much winter ahead 😖 - we seem to be too hot or too cold too often

I hope your weekend is a good one. xo

[Birdy77]

Hello SYT 🌞

Sending you some sunshine to hopefully brighten up your morning.

I understand not feeling talkative. Just know that I will always listen if and when you feel like connecting.

Did you have feral weather over the weekend? We did, but had to go out in it and drive for many hours yesterday and attend a family function, dysfunctionality at it's very finest 😉 sooooo glad to get home and away from it all.

I am going to try to get to the beach for a walk today ... what will you do today?

🌻birdy