What do you fear (today)?

[The_Abyss]

In line with my "when were you last truly happy" post, I wondered about what other people fear?

Is it an "every day fear", or is it a "just today" fear?

Do you fear getting out of bed? Do you fear opening the mail? Do you fear the phone ringing? Do you fear being alone? Do you fear the darkness descending? Do you fear confrontations? Do you fear rejection? Do you fear not feeling anything at all?

I wonder if just voicing that fear, sharing that fear, will help to take away it's power? Or will it give it life?

For me, my big fear at the moment is being found out. Fearing my kids or family will come across my posts. Fear a colleague will recognise my writing style or circumstances. Fear that someone will see through this big brave front I put on to get through the door each day. Fear that someone sees my vulnerability.

[sbsi908]

I can relate to this. I have moments that I fear that I'll start hallucinating and I hit my head in these scenarios to try and tell myself "you're sane, only the insane think they're sane!"

[sbsi908]

I fear 2 things.

"the unexplained" (be it: paranormal, ghosts and spirits)

and I have a very irrational fear of viral and bacterial illnesses like the common cold and gastro. They terrify me ESPECIALLY gastro, probably after a traumatic event of food poisoning which cancelled my holiday trip interstate for Christmas.

[The_Abyss]

Hmmm sbsi.....I have "met" a few ghosts in my time and they still scare me!

My greatest fear today is relapsing.

[CMF]

'Him' coming back into our lives. He made contact today after almost 4 months of no contact. He ruined my easter, i don't need anymore of his verbal abuse. I'm afraid of the tension when/if i see him.

cmf

[Fairywings]

I know my little boy is only still very young but this is my biggest fear not being able to always be there for him he has severe autism and wish I could just become immortal might have to invest in vamporism xx

[The_Abyss]

My fear today is..... failure

[The_Abyss]

My other fear today.... that BB is becoming more real, more important, than the "real" world around me.

[Quercus]

Hi TA,

I get what you mean. I deleted my social media years ago because I felt like I was living more on the phone than in the real world. I'm accepting that I need the support on BB at this time but another part of me fears being dependant on the forums. I try (mostly fail) to put time limits on my time online so I spend most of the day connected to my real world. But it's hard when you think all the words on here represent a living person who is also struggling.

Today I was terrified of opening my mouth and sharing a single sentence with my husband. But I did it. And he responded in a way I hadn't anticipated. He validated how I felt. He said I wasn't overreacting. I feel relief.

[graysky]

I too fear being found out.

I fear being labelled weak and people will think I am shirking responsibility when I can't perform well at work.
I fear not being in control of my body when I go through symptoms of anxiety.
I fear being sick from the nausea anxiety causes me. I fear the embarrassment and shame that comes along with it.

[pessimist25]

My today everyday fears are... myself, the future, not being good enough, failure and most of all losing control and "going crazy".