UPDATED: I just feel alone and lost in a new world I don't like

[Zetta]

Hi everyone, I just want to introduce myself. I went to the Dr today and he prescribed me my medication. I'll be starting the journey to a more positive outlook soon. I just feel soo lost and confused. My husband and I have had a pretty hard week this week as I told him something that changed everything for us. A secret I held for a long time. And he's not talking to me much. I just feel alone and lost in a new world I don't like. It's just all soo confusing. 

[Zetta]

Hi Starwolf,

Yes the pain has eased and made my life a little easier! I have started running again to get some well deserved me time and just to clear my head and just be able to let all my emotions out. It's been tough dealing with the loss of my uncle. This morning I had a moment where I found a Teddy Bear he gave to my eldest son before we left South Africa and I just cried!! That was the last time we saw him. My boys were great and just gave me cuddles and told me that it will be ok. They are at times my best comforters I have. Hubby has been really supportive too. I have been taking time to grieve on my own too.

Thanks for being here and listening.

Cheers,

Zetta

[Starwolf]

Zetta, you're a gem. Your boys are right, it'll be OK, you'll get through this. How comforting to have family support... Good to know your husband rallied around too.

Sometimes, a good cry is just what the doctor ordered. Grief must be embraced and that's exactly what you're doing.

Thinking of you.

[Lost_Girl]

Hi Zetta,

Sorry to hear of your loss. I am glad that your family are being supportive.

I am glad that your health is somewhat better in the interim.

Star has very eloquently said it all, embrace your grief lovely.

Thinking of you xx

[Zetta]

Thanks Starwolf,

I appreciate your support. My Uncles funeral is on friday and I'm going to release some Yellow balloons in his memory on Friday! Yellow was his favourite colour! And have a beer for him!! Were having a BBQ on friday night with friends but I'm going to skype in on the funeral on friday night as it is being held in South Africa.

Some days are fine and other days I just cry and I allow myself to cry and laugh about the good times too!! My mum is taking it hard as she can't go to the funeral and we've been calling each other a lot and been messaging and crying over the phone a lot too.

Thank you for listening and just being here. I have been to soo many funerals I have learned how to deal with it.

Cheers,

Zetta

[Zetta]

Thank you Lost Girl,

It's hard to deal with this loss, but were doing the best we can. I have been praying a lot lately too and that I think is part of why I'm dealing with it so well as I'm not carrying this alone. It's a relief that my pain is a lot less. It makes life soo much easier. It's now the countdown to surgery and the anxiety with that. Its nice to have such great support too. Thanks guys!!

Cheers,

Zetta

[Zetta]

Hi there everyone,

I had my surgery yesterday and I have some good news and some bad news. The good news is that I don't have endometriosis but the bad news is that I have another disease which I can't remember what it is. But it is treatable with the Mirena or a hysterectomy.

So Here comes a bother big decision to be made this year. I'm doing alright with my recovery. Just still really tired.

I'll keep you all posted as to how i'm going.

Relived

Zetta

[Lost_Girl]

Great news Zetta xx

[blondguy]

Hey Zetta

I know you have been through a lot of pain....

(Hugs) and thinking of you

Paulx

[Zetta]

Thanks Paul!!

I have seen my specialist a few weeks ago and the outcome of the laparoscopy is that I don't have endometriosis but I have adenomyosis. And the only way to diagnose it properly is to have a hysterectomy. So my husband and I have decided that I will be having a hysterectomy. We haven't set a date for surgery yet as i'm not sure when we can afford to do it. It is a major operation and the recovery will be 6 weeks!! Which means I will need help for 6 weeks and my kids won't be able to do school for a few weeks!! This year seems to be really hard for us as a family!! And it's all happening one thing right on top of the other!!

Feeling lost,

Zetta!!

[blondguy]

Hey Zetta

Really good to see you again! I dont blame for you feeling lost...My friend Pixi has just been given the same diagnosis.....I am really sorry as I dont think you saw that coming.....

You are doing it really tough this year Zetta :-(......No advice from me except for my thoughts and a hugs for you..Paulxx

I dont think I have ever typed a sad face on the forums. It means I respect your situation and your strength Z