Struggling to go on

[Tess2]

Life is being really hard for me and troubles keep compounding. I cannot face wading through what is needed to move forward I feel isolated and alone. I have people who care but I think they can be overloaded with my despair and it can be a burden. There seem to be obstacles all along the way.

Two years ago I lost my job. A career of 50 years. I am 66 and have no partner. I have not coped well with this loss and now have significant financial problems too. I have to sell my home. Pay off my mortgage and buy a new place. I live with my son who is very caring but I have suppported him financially and emotionally through the family court. His ex is trying to remove him from his daughters life. I feel I have reached my retirement years with very little and no joy. Depression has been a big part of my life. But I have managed. Now I also have severe anxiety. It paralyses me. And panic attacks. I don’t know how to do each day.

[Birdy77]

Dear Tess,

I'm also really sorry to hear you are feeling so low. It's just the absolute pits isn't it?

Gorgeous Grandy always has the most uplifting things to say, and I'm sorry I can't come up with anything much except to say that you are not alone in your feelings. I am down in that hole too - wanna build a blanket fort and wallow together?

🌻birdy

[Ggrand]

Dearest Tess

It hurts when we argue with our children, and I’m sorry that happened to you both...A love between mother and her children and children and their parents is usually unconditional, I’m sure soon enough that you will be both back to supporting each other again..🤗..I hope everything gets back to where it was before the argument..Is your sons injuring really bad?...

Im pleased you will give the candle a try..I have a dozen sitting on my coffee table ..I light about 6 and put on some music with my ear phones..rather loudly until I calm down the soften the music, I do fall asleep a lot doing this...

The love you have for your hubby will stay with in your heart forever..I don’t think we ever will stop missing them..Your hubby lives in your heart and I think it’s beautiful that it does....I’m truely sorry your missing him..it’s so very hard Tess.🤗..

its okay, please don’t concern yourself with not posting on mine..Your first priority is to look after and take good care of you by being so very gentle and kind to you...Can you please do that for me and the other lovely people here that care about you...Your a special lady Tess..please sweety try not to forget that ever...

Im sorry Birdie that your not feeling really well...Please sweetie tweetie, come sit with us and hold our hands..Together we can all get past our hard time that seems to be grabbing hold of us...

Sending more Love and more hugs to the both of you and anyone else reading..💜💜🤗🤗..

Grandy..

[Tess2]

Thank you Birdy,

id love to build a blanket fort and have a wallow with you. It is good to hear from you and I am sorry you are low.. I am grateful for the support that I get here in these down times

tess

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Tess,

So sorry you're really low dear friend. I am glad you posted and shared your feelings with us. Please keep posting how you're feeling. ..Sometimes it helps to put it out there and have someone to listen...we're here for you Tess.

Keep reminding yourself it will pass. I know it doesn't feel like it will...

Thinking of you Tess - please give yourself lots of self care. .. sending you a hug.

Love Lee

[Tess2]

Hi lee, and my friends here,

I am still really struggling, I do try really hard to focus on the positives but I am finding it harder and harder to feel ok and move forward. I am becoming quite housebound which is worrying me. My anxiety is really high and I feel like crying a lot, which is not like me. I hate crying.

I know I don’t post much, but I follow your posts and think about you

tess

[Ggrand]

Hello dear Tess,

Im sorry your struggling, I agree that it can be very hard to focus on our positives..and move forward....Those negatives can overpower our positives nearly all the time..please don’t believe what your negatives are saying to you...I’ve started, well nearly half way through a 6 week ptsd course..and I keep reading in the course that we must challenge our negative thoughts...

Awe Tess sweety, cry lovely lady, let the tears fall, I’m here next to you..crying is the only way to release that deep soul pain of depression...I understand you hate crying, but Tess, give in to it...cry all you need to cry...I’m holding on to you dear lady...

thats okay you not posting much, I’m so pleased that you post when you need to..that’s what here is all about..seeking support, and receiving also the love and care of the people here....Big hugs sweety..🤗..Please don’t give up..keep trying to move forward always...I know we fall down..Gee I do a lot..but we have to try to pick us up, dust us down and get straight back up again.

Sending you my love💜💜 and some comforting hugs🤗🤗 ..

Grandy..🌿🕊

[Tess2]

Thank you dear Grandy. You are so lovely

tess

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Tess,

So sorry you are struggling dear friend.

It is concerning your anxiety is getting worse!!!!! Please know we are always here for you. Is there anything in particular we can do to support you more? Please do let us know if there is ok, I truly mean it.

I agree with Grandy - sometimes a good cry is a great release.

Thinking of you and sending you comforting thoughts.

Love Lee

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Tess,

Just letting you know I'm thinking of you. ..I do hope your day was ok.

Sending you peaceful thoughts dear friend.

Lee

[Tess2]

Thank you very much lee

tess