Im new. Unsure how to start.

[Sapphire_]

Hello. Im new. I dont really know where to start. My heart is pounding, Im so anxious to be on here. Im not sure if its the right thing to do. I've never spoken to anyone about how i feel or anything. Even my husband. I just cant. I dont really know what i am supposes to do. I feel so alone and lost.

[Sapphire_]

I am locked up in a mental health ward this is my 6th day. Im sorry for breaking the rules. I wont post again.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Sapphire, you haven't broken any rules, we were just worried about you based on your post.  Thanks for letting us know that you have people around you at the moment.  We hope you will keep posting here for as long as you find it useful.  There are many members here supporting you in this thread who care about what happens to you.

[demonblaster]

No Sapphire that's not what Sophie was saying, she was worried about you when you were talking suicide and didn't realise you're in hospital. She was looking out for you 🙂

As Sophie said there's a lot of people care about you here so keep posting we wanna know how you're going xx

[Sapphire_]

Today is a BAD day. I am going out soon with my hubby. I am allowed out for 3 hours. Honestly it scares me. I've just been given some elastic bands to cope with anxiety since SH is my only release. Anyway just thought i would let you know that i am safe. I think its going to be a long stay.

[Starwolf]

Your safety is the number 1 priority. So thank you for sharing this with us. Sophie and DB are right, we do worry about members who seem to be at risk. Just because we care...

I hope your time out with your hubby will go well. Our thoughts are with you.

[Sapphire_]

They want me out. My thoughts are still the same as when i came in. They have barely touched the surface of the problems that caused me to be like this. If i leave this will be the end. Im not wanted. They dont care. I dont care anymore.

[Starwolf]

In depth work on the cause of your distress does not happen in hospitals.They only keep you safe in emergencies. Long-term therapy is the role of one on one team work with a psy. Hospital staff can advise you re follow up if you don't already have a treating specialist. If you do but wish to change, you must go back to a GP for a different referral. If you are not being heard, I'd suggest you contact the social service/worker normally attached to every hospital. They should point you in the right direction.

[startingnew]

hello dear Sapphire

im sorry i havent been around, i ended up in the psych ward myself.

im sorry this experience for you hasnt been the best.

please keep talking, rant and let it all out. suicidal idealation can be helped.

what about your hubby? he seems really supportive of you, are you able to talk to him about your thoughts and feelings?

Starwolf is right hospitals are really fro short term crisis care, you need to have some outside supports as well like your gp, psychologist and maybe even a psychiatrist as well to help you in the long term and help you through these stages progressively. they care and we care about you.

im hoping your going a little bit better now. your in my thoughts

xoxox

[Neil_1]

Hi Sapphire,

I’ve been reading your thread and keeping up with how you’re going. I’m writing to let you know YOU ARE IMPORTANT and needed. You don’t know me, this is the first time I’m writing to you, but with all that I’ve read, I just want to let you know that you’re important, that people care about you and you can see by all the support on this thread, you are being listened too.

I decided to write to you … just to let you know that there are more people out here who are supporting you, even though a lot will not post, the fact that they’re reading and sharing this journey, that is silent support that you’ll never know … but it is there.

You’ve had some wonderful advice along the way and I also would like to say how proud of you that you took that massive step to go to hospital. That’s no little achievement on your part, that’s a biggie. You may not think so, and you may not think that it served of any use to you, but hey, even in the time you were there, your personality shone through enough that you were able to strike up another friendship.

Keep posting here.

Neil

ps: love your name by the way.

[Sapphire_]

Startingnew- I'm sorry to hear you were also in hospital. You've been so helpful to me while you were also dealing with your own troubles. It really does mean alot.

Niel- Thank you, its has been very hard. I think i am getting to a better place now.

Ive been moved from the hospital today to a residential facility for out patients with mental health issues. I dont really know what to do with myself. Im in my own self contained unit and its only for short stays but they work with the psych and others to help with management. Its really quiet and feel a little out of place after just being let out of hospital. I am glad to be out though. I just hope the quite doesnt let me get me. If that makes sense.

I am looking hopeful for the minute. Thank you all. I will keep posting my progress.