Im new. Unsure how to start.

[Sapphire_]

Hello. Im new. I dont really know where to start. My heart is pounding, Im so anxious to be on here. Im not sure if its the right thing to do. I've never spoken to anyone about how i feel or anything. Even my husband. I just cant. I dont really know what i am supposes to do. I feel so alone and lost.

[Ggrand]

Hello Sapphire,

Im sorry if I had anything to do with you been triggered by a word because of the little elephant..😢 Please be okay..

Im really pleased you took the initiative to ring and your gp make an appointment for you..That's a step forward for you in self care..well done..

Its okay if your not visiting ours. We understand, and only want you to concerntrate on getting yourself well..

Sapphire, I know sweetie that you can do this and get well, because you want to, and you have before, your not alone, we've got you and are holding your hands, good luck tomorrow, remember to breath deep breathes tomorrow before, during and after your visit...

Take care of you....I care very deeply for you,

Kind thoughts and warm comfy hugs.

Grandy..

[demonblaster]

You're in my thoughts darlin

Hope todays better for you and your appointment goes well

💙🤗🤗🤗 💗

We're right here ⚘🌴 and care very deeply ☺

[startingnew]

Hi loveley

HHopng your appt went ok and something is being worked out for you.

Hugs and hugs. Breathe we are here for you ❣❣🌷🌷

[startingnew]

Wow that was bad spelling- tht should be Hoping not whatever that came out to be

[Sapphire_]

Hello Starts,Deebi & Grandy and all.

My psychiatrist has put me back on my original meds. He thinks its because of my weightloss surgery that my body now has a much faster absorption rate. So affected me harshly. Feel like im just always gonna stay the same with meds that make me sleepy and stupid. Nothing i can do about it i guess. I just feel like im not being listened to.

Im having surgery on the 11th july to have my gallbladder out. Cant wait for it to finally be fixed and hopefully that will help me feel better both physically and mentally.

I quit smoking last week and was doing so well until today and just went loose on them. So stupid and disappointed in myself. Have to try harder.

❤❤

[startingnew]

Hey Sapphire

Im sorry your feeling unheard. Perhaps give it some time for these meds to work and have abit of trust in the psychiatrist. You could change psychiatrists if you dont think your working well with this one..

good to hear your sugury is scheduled. Ill bet your ready for all this to be over and done with so you can start feeling well again.

Quitting smoking isnt an overnight job. Inatead of going cold turkey perhaps try to reduce it by one or 2 a day so its in increments...

Hugs xoxo

[demonblaster]

Good to hear from ya darl ☺

Hope you have some comfort in knowing why your bad reaction to the meds hun. I think give yourself a chance to get back on your feet lovey before going furthur with med plans. Your choice of course but you need some stability I'd think for a while first. Maybe this time they wont make you feel that way with luck. Wouldn't be very nice poor thing.

Hun another way of looking at it is you gave up for a week, you know you can now and that was strong especially with your struggling. I had 2 today first in 3 days, goin ok. We can do it hun 🤝

I imagine that'd be a relief having a date for gallbladder, great that it'll take a load of both ways with pain. That'll come round in no time.

Thanks for good update Sapphire, been wondering how you were doing 🤗💙 you're a tough cooky chooky ☺

[Sapphire_]

Thank you Starts and Deebee.

I like my psychiatrist but i dont think he understands me with the meds. I will just see how i go. Yes i do need to trust in him. Hard to do.

I am honestly just so impatient with waiting for my surgery now that i have a date. The pain everytime i eat is just getting to me and just dont want to eat. So been skipping meals which is a bad thing since i can only eat so little my nutrition intake is appalling. I just cant wait for it to be done and hopefully it will make me feel better about myself.

Had smokes again today. So disappointed in myself. Going to try harder tomorrow. I can do it. I need to do it. I want to do it. I dont know why i set myself up to fail though. I know i want to quit so i go buy more papers and filters. Well once this pack has gone there will be no more.

On a happier note. I went shopping today for new clothing. I actually made it and even had lunch at the shops with my friend. I feel a sense of achievement that i actually went, was able to try on clothing and eat out. I did get sick and felt faint but just sat down and it passed.

Hope you all have a peaceful night.

💙💙xx

[startingnew]

Hey Sapphire

Try not to be too hard on yourself. Your trying your best with smokes and eating and just trying to be well. At least you know what is wrong now and can count down the days or be able to have a piece of mind that they will be able to help you more soon.

Good on you for going out shopping with your friend today. 🙂

[demonblaster]

Glad you like your psyh hun.

Poor thing with the pain, don't blame you wanting it out and done with. It'll be come round before you know it. Can you manage nutritional drinks for now. Low fat milk. Wonder if GP could give you anything to help with nutrition.

Wow good for you going out 😀 would have been a buzz clothes shopping I bet. Loven you sitting down and it passed, you're so much stronger now Sapphire 🤗 look how far you've come.

You're amongst friends here darl ☺

🤝💙🌹