Im new. Unsure how to start.

[Sapphire_]

Hello. Im new. I dont really know where to start. My heart is pounding, Im so anxious to be on here. Im not sure if its the right thing to do. I've never spoken to anyone about how i feel or anything. Even my husband. I just cant. I dont really know what i am supposes to do. I feel so alone and lost.

[Ggrand]

Hello Sapphire,

I'm just checking in with you to see how you are feeling?

Care really deeply for you lovely Sapphire..

warming up hugs 🤗..

Grandy...xx

[demonblaster]

Dear Sapphire 💙

Hey lovey just popping in to see how you are too.

You know we care very much about you, I'm hopeful those horrid side effects have settled with the meds. Poor thing 🤗

Hoping your results from your ultrasound have given you an idea with your tummy pain and that's settled too.

Sapphire take good care of yourself lovey you have great goals now and it's involving helping many in such an important way.

You deserve peace darl

Thoughts and care 🤗🐣🕊

[Sapphire_]

Heya Starts, Grandy, Deebi and everyone.

Im sorry i havent been on again lately. Ive been really struggling with my new meds. Im just a zombie. Also have the horrid flu. I also have gallstones and have to have my gallbladder removed. Seeing the surgeon on monday next week. Hopefully wont take too long to get done.

Thank you all for caring so much about me. Means alot.

💙❤💙❤💙❤

[startingnew]

Hey Sapphire

Wow that is alot to handle! You poor bugger being so unwell. I hope once your gallbladders remove you might start to feel better too.

Hugs but gentle ones.

❤❤

[demonblaster]

Wow poor thing Sapphire hey darl, very painful from what I've heard with gallstones. So they're removing it. That should be a huge relief. Glad you know whats goin on 💙

Sorry your still having struggles with the meds. Hoping that settles soon.

Easy caring about you lovey 🌹💙💗

[Ggrand]

Hello Beautiful Sapphire,

Im really so very sorry your hurting so much..Remember we are never far away...

There very painful, my dil had hers out last year, I haven't from them but I believe she is much better..will be good once it's taken out...please have patience with Your meds..Please...🌹..

Um just in case your in need of cheering up..I found these three cute little guys and I think they want some playing and brushing...🐘🐕🦍..they are all teeny weeny, so be careful cause they will run all over your bed and make a mess of it...once you pet them they will snuggle up to you and keep you safe..

Good Night , sweetie,

Thinking of you with care,

Grandy....xx

[Sapphire_]

Thank you Starts,Deebi&Grandy

Tomorrow i have an emergency appointment with my psychiatrist. I can barely function and string a sentence together. I told my therapist that i cant take it anymore and that last night i stopped taking my meds. I told her i feel like im going to end up in hospital because i dont want this and at my breaking point. Am seriously about to snap. So she made me an appointment for tomorrow to see him.

I cant even remember what else i was going to say and this has taken me so long to write and even think of what to say. I feel so bad becausei havent been to visit you guys and know your going through hard times too and want to help you all but i just have no words and brain just doesnt work. I think and care about you all i just dont know how to respond atm.. stupid brain needs to work. I hope im not broken and stay like this forever because i really cant be like this. I just cant.

Grandy thanks for the little critters. I especially love the Elephant. My favorite animal is elephants. So when i first got my dog i was thinkingof names and couldn't think of anything. I had a random thought of elephants. So i named my puppy Ele. As in elephant. Pronounced Ellie, spelt Ele. So i have a little Ele-phant 😂🐘🐩

Well ive just been triggered by a word in my predict text and so i must leave. I dont know why it came up. Not even anywhere close to what i was talking about. But now i feel panic coming on because maybe its some sort of sign. Maybe its the universe messing with my head just to torment me.

[startingnew]

Hi loveley

Quick check in to see how your going. Hoping youve had some news on your surgury too by now.

Hugs xoxoxo 💜💚💙❤💖💝❣

[demonblaster]

Hey Sapphire 💙

Hoping the meds are starting to settle and give you some peace within. And that you're not having pain 🤗 poor darl

No pressure to post just wanted to add my support ☺ and care

Look after you Sapphire 🌹

Thoughts 🗯

[demonblaster]

Breathe darlin only focus on breathing don't think about anything else.

Sapphire darlin good you rang and got an appoinment. You poor thing going through this, you're not alone we're with you ok every step holding your hand and listening.

Hun you're a sweety and we know how it is when it's hard to talk, that's quite ok lovey we know you you care as we do for you too 💙 just keep up with the slow breathing important not to think about anything but that hun.

Ele sounds lovely. 🐘 A friend started a collection for me yrs ago. They're a magnificent creature aren't they.

Thanks for letting us know where you're at and that'd be how your feeling with thoughts of not coming good again, you've pulled through hard times and I believe you will again hun. Remember you're stronger than what you think.

All best and thoughts for tomorrow dear Sapphire.

With you darl 💙🤝💗⚘🍃🐘