Im new. Unsure how to start.

[Sapphire_]

Hello. Im new. I dont really know where to start. My heart is pounding, Im so anxious to be on here. Im not sure if its the right thing to do. I've never spoken to anyone about how i feel or anything. Even my husband. I just cant. I dont really know what i am supposes to do. I feel so alone and lost.

[Sapphire_]

I didnt know. When I seen it had not been posted i freaked out. I panicked and felt like a was going to pass out. Maybe I just shouldnt have posted. Maybe I just shouldnt have come here for help. I just dont know what to do. Im terrified of what might happen.

[startingnew]

Take a few deep breaths for me

Breathe in.....breathe out...... breathe in...... breathe out......

Keep going until you settle abit

we are here listening and supporting you. We arent here judging you no matter what you have written. We are here to support you.

Itll be ok

[Sapphire_]

I know my life is nothing compared to others. I just want to give up.

[demonblaster]

Sapphire darling

It's the anxiety that's making you feel so tense and frightened, it's stess coming out that needs a release, it's bubbling, don't feel sorry about anything your saying ok, it's fine, that's what here's for to talk as much and long as you want.

Darl, I've been where you are and it is frightening, what I want you to do as well as what's been mentioned above is to take several nice long deep steady breaths, concentrate on that only in & let it out same way nice and steady and slowly, feel the stress leaving your body.

Also take a firm voice with yourself, you know it's anxiety, tell yourself you're not having it, you're going to settle and WILL feel ok. Breath and keep at it till you calm, you will darl.

Talk when you can ok, we're here for you,

[Sapphire_]

Ive calmed down a bit. Well, im not breathing so badly. And i cant feel my pulse in my head anymore which is good i guess. There is only one thing that can calm me down when i get like that. Im just glad my hubby isnt here to see me like this. I dont want him to know. Not yet anyway. I can barely admit to myself that im like this.

[Sapphire_]

Thank you both for your breathing tips. I will try to use them next time.

[demonblaster]

yw Sapphire yeah concentrating on the breathing is a vital.

Do you do any excercise or meditation can be very helpful for stress release, excercise can be done at home if you're not comfy going out, doesn't have to begin with be strenuous but really does help release.

Remember talk here when you're ready, baby steps if fine, but it needs to come out 🙂

Don't worry as mentioned some posts depending on volume of other ones can take a while which is ok cause it's so well moderated and run here it's what makes it such a good place to be. No judgement, lot of support as you can see.

I'll wait up for a bit longer otherwise probs back tomoz

If you're not back tonight hope you get a good sleep, how's that going, that creates a lot of stess & anxiety too in itself without other stuff going on. Excercise also helps with sleeping

[Sapphire_]

I am just a failure at everything i do. I cant be bothered any more. I feel like my life has no point to it.

[startingnew]

hi Sapphire

you longer post is here now.

it sounds like your really struggling with all of this.

im wondering if your able to speak to the uni counsellor?

or maybe speak to your gp so they can assess, diagnose and reffer you to other support services?

[Sapphire_]

I just reread my post from last night. Its not evan what i want to say, its not even half of it. I don't know how to express how i feel. I just dont see the point anymore. Ive tried to tell people before and they didnt get it and just give generic responses. I tried to tell my GP and ge sebt me for blood tests and that was that. Nothing more. Noone listens so there isn't any point. My life has no meaning and i cant be bothered with it anymore. I just wish to disappear.