how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Matchy69]

Hi Myladygirl,i am sorry you are going through a similar situation.I know what it is like to feel alone bit you can talk to me on here.

Losing someone you care about makes it more harder.Finding a pperson who you connect with is really hard.I find my self crying for this person wanting them in my life helping each other.I wish i could have done some things differently.I didnt know if anyone would even talk to me on here,do it is great that people do want to listen and help each other.

I wake up in the morning my heart racing knowing i have another day to try and get through,i start just crying.I am trying to do things during the day even judt little things or find my self just in bed crying

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,I am glad the counsiling sessions really helped you.It sounds like that you have learnt a lot about yourself from these sessions.It would be nice if we could help and save everyone but we cant unfortunately.I am really suprised no one has told you what a sweet caring person you are,I can tell that from the short time we have been writing.

When i lost my mother to cancer I wanted to do something in her memory so i allways wanted to sponser a world vision child so i ended up sponsering one that was born on the day she passed.He lives in Sri Lanka and loves cricket which was my mums favourite sport to watch.It is so lovely getting letters from him and his drawings and seeing how he is developing.I would love to sponser more.So many people so disadvantaged then me.

I am sure what the the day will bring today,it has been pretty full on so far since my son woke up at 5:30am.He is a full time job at times.But it is funny the love you have for your kids and coulldnt imagine them any other way.My daughter just got up,i supose she will want breakfast.

Take care.

Mark

[Aaronsis]

Good Morning..why are we up so early on a Saturday..lol

I am finding as I get older it is harder to sleep in ...oh dear..old age is coming..now with my glasses..what next...a hearing aid...lol

Kids are one of the worlds greatest gifts and even though they push us to insanity sometimes you are so right, we would not have it any other way...they have our hearts.

I am excited for today..it is clivia hunt day and I am so determined..I also have to go to the cake shop to get some things to make this cake next week...maybe I should be hiring you to do it..lol...who knows how this is going to turn out..lol..but I do know it will be made with love and I will give it my best.

That is so awesome that you have a sponsor child. All the links to your mum is so special and she would be so honoured and proud. That is a really nice and positive way to honour her as well as help a child that is less fortunate that ours, that is so wonderful of you Mark. I know what you mean about "so many disadvantaged people then me" but you know, we all have problems and issues and no ones is more or less important that anyone elses. It is all relative to us as we have to experience it so please don't discount your troubles at the moment, as I am hopeful for you that in time you are going to feel better. I really do, you have made some really positive choices to be better and do things and you should feel proud as you could have easily chosen not to.

I can believe I am up this early on a non school day..lol..I even have the washing machine going...what is wrong with me...I do have this thing where I love the smell of fresh sheets after they have come in off the line...it is the best..small things in life..lol

Ok well I am off to have another coffee and then..you guessed it...clivia time!!!!

Chat soon Mark..I will be here on and off today but know as soon as I make that purchase I will let you know..I may even update my picture as my new purchase...lol

Have a great day too

Your gardening friend..Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,My profile photo i put on is of a rose my daughter planted called Double Delight,very pretty.

I am allways up early and when i have my son he wakes up really earlier and full of energy.

I know what you mean about the smell of freshly washed sheets and clothes and i love the feel of freshly washed sheets.I did my washing this morning to and my son started hanging the washing up for me but my ocds were going crazy as i have to have things in order and pegs colour in order.He gave up and i fixed it all up.

Your friend,

Mark

[MyLadyGirl]

Hi Matchy69,

Thank you so much for the kind and sweet though and a humble kind gesture. Yes there are some who listen to what what they are going through. It's my second day to this forum and I feel thankful that people have similar then myself and I can convey what I have been doing and currently doing.

I know it's hard for you to wake up for another day but from the conversation with you and Sarah, I have learned that you have lots of motivation and support that you have given to her. Sarah is what she is cause of you and that should not make you feel offset.

As for me I have a bad and horrible weakness that I am still find myself to cry. I feel I need to work my way and if it does not I cry. I used to cry for all the small things that is happening to me. But with a morning quote of me waking up seeing myself in the mirror by giving motivation I moved on.. You should try that? You will see the different. You have a lovely family and you care for them alot. That should not weaken you. Yes we hope we could be better but what your doing is great. I am glad that you give happiness to people.

[Matchy69]

Hi myladygirl,thanks for the kind words and your insight.We are all different and react differently to situations.Crying these days seem to be away of life for me.I have cried this morning missing someone special in my life.I have allways cried a lot even when i was in school being teased i would cry and get teased even more for crying.

My kids are my life a lot of hard work having special needs and me not feeling the best but i just do my best for them that i can.

I look at my self in the mirror i see a sad lonely man.I would love to look at a happy face again.

I came on this forum hoping to find someone to talk to about what i am going through and just to talk about everyday stuff.I just miss that.Its great that i found a couple of people who are willing to listen and talk to me.

[MyLadyGirl]

Hello Matchy69

We all miss someone that is special in our life. It has been 20 years since I have lots someone that was so dear to me. I cry to my sleep and wake up with a cry to. I can't imagine I am still here and wishes that person is with me too. But I can't cause I think it will upset that person and I need to let it go sooner or later as it may drown me and I will not find happiness.

Yes people cry for many reasons that can't be explain. But let me ask you is it worth while. What trigger me to cry. You said that you cry when your being teased. May I know what was the reason. Why you cry? That is if you want to share.

When you look your self in the mirror how can you demoralized yourself saying that you are lonely? Are you lonely cause you do not have someone beside you or are you lonely cause you want to feel that way. (if you want to share only)

I have a great family and someone besides me and still I feel lonely. I even feel of crying cause why I have this people and still feel lonely. Isn't it simple if I am just be alone. I don't have friends to express my feeling cause I am scared people will judge me. I don't know how or where to make friends. If I want to meet a person just to have coffee and just talk I just don't have. That gets me upset and cry to myself (crying now) but what to do I can't do anything. Even when I walk to the shopping centre I feel so lonely. No one to talk too or get a person idea or opinion. Sometimes I feel so pathetic. It's hard. Life is hard but I just have to trust myself. I have to believe in myself. I have to lift up my chin even thought its hard.

I am glad that you found people that listen to you and able to talk to you. I hope I can be part of that discussion

[Matchy69]

Hi it was so long ago that i was being teased in school.My said i was a very sensitive person.I seemed to go through life crying at all sorts of things from losing a pet to being left out.I found that person who i thought i was going to spend the rest of my life with at the age of 29 but that didnt work out but we did have two wonderful children together which i put first in my life.Even having kids around i still i have the lonely feeling for some adult company,just someone to talk to.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark and hello to you too Mylady girl nice that you can join our chat too.

Well I have some exciting news..I am the proud new owner of one orange clivia...yay.

How is your day coming along Mark, I must say I did have a laugh at you mentioning your OCD with the washing..I AM THE SAME..I am not sure if you are like me but mine goes like this....socks HAVE to be in pairs and next to each other on the line, an item with two pegs or more MUST have the same colour peg, NOTHING can be inside out, although apparently that is how you should dry your clothes so they don't fade..no thanks!! um what else..oh yeah..towels have to be washed seperatly to the other washing as does bed linen and they must hang on the outside of the line...yeah so that is me......fruit cake!

I have got all the things I need now to make the cake so stay tuned for how that all turns out too....I feel like I am biting off more than I can chew but hey, nothing ventured nothing gained.

I read your reply to Myladygirl and you mentioned you had been upset and crying today, I am really sorry to hear that Mark and I hope that you can find something today that will make you smile. I am not sure what the weather is like for you but how about a walk to the shops with the kids to get an icecream, that is sure to put a smile on everyone's face.

Your rose is stunning and I love that your daughter planted it, that is really special. The colour is sensational and it looks so healthy and pretty, well done!

Did you get a chance to rewatch the Indian? I am thinking of taking myself to the movies tonight to see the Lion King again..I really love it.

Speaking of gardening again, now that I am practically Don Burke, I found at the nursery some Rhinuculars (sp?) oh wow they are so pretty, I really like that vintage look rose/flower I have discovered. There were so many gorgeous flowers out I could have spent a fortune...although I don't have a fortune....lol

Ok well off to do some wonderful house work and see what those crazy cats are doing outside, they pretty much are indoors cats but I let them out when I am home...I have to watch them though as one nicks off to eat at other peoples houses!!

Chat soon

S

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,that is great news that you found some Clivias.Well done,i to well know the search for a paticular plant how hard it can be at times.

My pegs have to be in a paticular order green red blue and my cloths have to be the right way out and hung the right way up,cant hang things upside down.Socks definately hanged together in pairs and no missing socks on my watch.

I hope the cake turns out great for you and your daughter.I love cooking but allways get nervous about cooking for people and having it turn out.I even make my own jams and marmalades.

I did have a cry this morning was just missing someone.You have cheered me up getting your Clivia (allmost sounds like a rude word lol)I know how much you wanted one.They are very hardy and am sure it will grow well for you.

My 7 y.o son did a poo on the toilet which dosnt sound much but it is really like a break through.I still had to wipe his bottom but its a start maby he will start using it regularly.

I am glad you liked the rose.My daughter chose it and planted it herself but she wasnt to sure it would grow being bare rooted when she got it.I said it will grow and she was so excited to see it flower.I can share my flower photos on my profile photo so you can enjoy them to.

Your Friend,

Mark