how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah the specialist cancelled the phone appointment last night and hasn't resheduled it so far.He had a slightly better day yesterday but the teacher says be can't focus.After a good start to the year it's all been undone and now got to wait if the doctor has any response to it.
Take care,
Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

That is a real shame that the appointment has to be rescheduled, hopefully they will get back to you really soon with another time. My son left school today early as he said he was not able to focus and his mind just felt like fog so I am going to be watching that space closely too. It must be so hard to be present in a room but not stay engaged or not stay on the task at hand, I really feel for them.

I hope that things start to improve this year for him and that you can get onto some real improvements for him and also for you too, the enormity of this for a parent must be so very overwhelming, I mean I know it is for you but I just have no idea how it feels.

The sun is out here today and the afternoon is just gorgeous so I am hopefully going to be able to enjoy some of that.

Have you been able to do anything more on your shed or in your garden today?

Hugs as always

Sarah xxx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah we have appointment in a couple of weeks for him in town.This phone apppointment was to see how he was going being to taken of one of his main medications.She timed it wrong with all the changes at the school.I hope your son is ok.Their is a lot going on in this world at the moment so I can understand him struggling and not focusing in school.
I did a little bit of gardening and I planted a couple of things.We have had a bit of rain here and is muddy outside so I don't know when I get the site leveled for the slab.
I am still struggling with my lonelyness and emptiness I feel.
Take care,
Mark.

[Aaronsis]

That is great news that you have an appointment in town with a doctor for your son Mark, I hope that this is the beginning of a new chapter for him, and for you too.

Thank you so much for your kind words about my son, I am not sure what was going on yesterday but it is so unlike him to express that he was not "feeling it" yesterday and wanted to just go home. He seems ok today, like his usual self so I will just watch him and see how he is tracking, hopefully it was just that, an off day..we all have them that is for sure.

You are so very right in that there is so much happening in the world at the moment and things we sure never had to think about when we were growing up, however they don't really know any different so hopefully it is not so traumatic as we may think.

We too had some rain last night, it was so lovely to hear it as I was laying there getting to sleep, I love hearing the rain. Not enough to make it muddy or too noticeable though. I hope it dries off a bit for you so you can get back to that slab.

How is that cat of yours going? I had a call from the ranger the other day as one of mine was in someone's garden being a "menace cat"...I was like "what!" so I had to race home to meet the caged cat and the ranger..how embarrassing as if you knew the cat she is so far from a menace, however I get if you are not a cat person it would be annoying a super friendly cat bugging you all day....so she opened the back door and got out, let the other two out too....grrrr.....ahhhh the joys!!

Chat to you soon my friend

Sarah xxx

[Matchy69]

I just got a letter from the hospital for next Tuesday 2nd March.So not much notice.

[Aaronsis]

Is that for your surgery? Wow not much notice but in saying that if it is for your surgery there is not too much time to think about it and just jump in and get it done, which is sometimes helpful.

I know you will be worried about it Mark and I hope that the short time frame is almost better than worse..what do you think?

S

xxxx

[Matchy69]

Yes it's for my surgery and anxiety is through the roof now.

[B_W_]

Hi Mark,

I am sorry I haven’t posted in a while. I haven’t been feeling the best either.

I have been thinking of you though. good luck tomorrow

[Matchy69]

Hi Briony it' lovely to see you again.I am sorry you are strugling yourself.I find it comes in waves.I find I feel sort of ok for awhile but then just get really down and depressed.

At the moment I am really anxious with my surgery that' Tuesday.I haven't been able to sleep and feel ing physically sick which happens to me with my anxiety.

Tale care,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

I am wondering how you are feeling today and if you have been able to keep the anxiety over tomorrow's surgery at bay? You are in the very best of care at the hospital and they will take very good care of you, I know you know this and that it doesn't help with the worry very much but just a reminder that they are there to care for you.

Were you able to do anything over the weekend to be able to ease the thinking and the thoughts about the surgery? Something in the garden or more on the shed, maybe even a ride on the bike?

It is pretty overcast here today and I think we are expecting some showers which will be good. I love the rain and I love listening to it while laying in bed and even better if there is some lightening and thunder too, so relaxing and it brings me peace.

Hugs to you my friend and hope today is a good one for you.

Sarah xx