Feeling down due to fatigue & undiagnosed health issues

[Elizabeth CP]

I haven't been using the forums much apart from a couple of responses to others posts. I stopped as I was too busy & trying to keep up with the forums was becoming too stressful. In September My husband went to Europe which was great although tiring due to the pace of the tour we did. Unfortunately a few days before returning home I fell heavily on concrete steps hurting my right side. I continued on relying on icepacks to manage the pain. I couldn't sleep because of the pain when lying down. The last day I came down with a bad cold which developed into a chest infection later on. The pain eased after 6 weeks & I recovered from the chest infection but have ongoing problems with fatigue & abdominal discomfort. My GP arranged pathology tests. The blood tests are normal but urine isn't. Today I was sent for a ultrasound of kidneys & bladder. Next week I have a gastroscopy & colonoscopy. My stress levels seem to be escalating out of proportion each time I see the GP & get sent for more tests. Prior to my accident my mental health issues were settling down but the last week it is much worse. I have lost my temper a few times in the last week without much provocation. This is not normal for me. I have been on a diet for several months but I am now finding it really hard to stick to it I just want to go & eat food I know will make me feel worse. The diet is a healthy one which I normally find easy to stick to because the food is satisfying.

I just want to get back on track & feel in control of my life & not feel so stressed & down. I also feel guilty for feeling this way because There is no confirmation of a serious illness.

[Ggrand]

Hello Elizabeth,

I admire anyone that can do suduko, I remember when it was first introduced I had a go, lol I can do a 9 cubed game any more cubes nope, I can't get my head around it,

I feel guilty that I haven't read through your thread as yet, I can't concentrate atm, but I will try tonight to read through,

Tony WhiteKnight has given me a few really good distraction music I love the Leo Rojas musi, and also Maharji sunset one, I use them a lot when I'm really sad, maybe you can try them. Of a night I use insight timer, both guided meditation and music, there hundreds on that app to choose different ones nightly.

I have run across a few of your posts and I find you have a lot of good suggestions and you are so kind and gentle with your words, and your suggestions have helped me. Thank you for that.🌺.

know that I do care for you Elizabeth, please be kind and thoughtful to yourself,

kindness only,

Karen.

[quirkywords]

Elizabeth,

I too have just found this thread.

Elizabeth I enjoy your posts on my thread no other thread as they are always so thoughtful.

I find I can't cope with any extremes of temperature either too hot or too cold. The humidity gets to me and makes me irritable and exhausted. Elizabeth do you wake up fresh or exhausted. I am not good in the mornings as I wake ups very tired.

Quirky

[Elizabeth CP]

Thanks Quirky & Karen I have been struggling for some time with fatigue. I struggle to sleep properly & when overtired it is worse. When it is hot I really struggle to sleep. Hot weather also triggers some PTSD symptoms. I was caught in a bushfire as a child. At the time I was home from school with severe sunburn so I am overanxious about getting burnt. Smothering myself in sunscreen isn't enough I cover up totally when outside which means I get hot & just the feeling of the sun on my clothes makes me anxious.

When younger I was a morning person & really miss this.

[Ggrand]

Hello Elizabeth,

I'm sorry that happened to you.

I dislike the summer heat and its humidity makes it hard to sleep.

Your walk sounds breathtaking, I enjoyed reading about it and it's made me wanting to go on a walk like your one. This is something you can do for yourself when feeling overly stressed, it's a good way to unwind, I love nature it's relaxing.

I was just wondering if maybe a tv in your bedroom might distract your mind, you can put the tv on timer so it switches off automatically, or listen to a radio, When I listen to music while trying to shut my thoughts up I try to do it mindfully by picking out and listening to one of the instruments that's playing then just listen to that instrument.

Maybe taking an umbrella with you if the suns to hot on your clothes/skin, I've seen a lot of people doing this, not sure if that helps or not but can maybe help with the sun exposure. Does the winter sun also makes you anxious ?

Im hoping you get some restful and peaceful sleep tonight.

Kindness only

Karen.

[Elizabeth CP]

I don't think a TV in the bedroom would work. I'm not a avid TV viewer. I need to look into music to try that. Unsure about carrying an umbrella. Could try it. Winter sun is fine. I need to motivate myself to do some work. Still feeling tired although I did sleep better last night as it was cooler.

[quirkywords]

Elizabeth,

I have never been a morning person and seem to have been tired since I started having children over 35 years ago!

I have not slept well for years and wake up tired after having vivid dreams. Do you dream?

Quirky

[Croix]

Dear Elizabeth~

I've been off for a little while and am just catching up on your thread. Hopefully the weather will be a bit cooler now. Like you I cannot abide hot nights.

I read your thoughts about remaining on the forum and have a couple of my own. If you were on here all day every day then I might agree that - for you, not necessarily anybody else - it might be counter productive, giving too much emphasis to the difficulties you face. But that is not the case, you are on-line infrequently and while you might fill us in on your current status you also get our reactions, which can give perspective you might gloss over if on your own.

For example if I remember correctly you do not have an air conditioner in your bedroom due to other peoples' wishes. You walk more that you can really deal with - because of other peoples' wishes. (Yes, I know what your answer will be:)

My second thought is that this whole place is here to help, not just you and me, but the silent majority who only read and never post. Your thread is an example people can take courage from

Croix

[PamelaR]

Oh Croix, it's so good that you're back on line. I hope this means you're in a good space! Many people have been asking about you and hoping you're okay. Glad you're back on board!!!

[Elizabeth CP]

Thanks Croix & Hi Pamela. It is good to hear from you Croix. I hope you were having a nice break or holiday & not being unwell. I feel as though I don't fit in I don't have the same difficulties as others & haven't had to endure some of the terrible things some people have experienced.

I need to get back to walking daily for my own health but weather & other conflicting activities are getting in the way. The air conditioner is an issue as I only have an inefficient airconditioner ducted to the whole house. I avoid using it because I don't like wasting money & using it at night seems a waste since I'm cooling the whole house not just the bedroom. I know it sounds silly but I really struggle to spend money unnecessarily. While this is useful in enabling me to manage financially even on a low income or pension as we are on now it does cause problems when it stops me from doing things which would help.

[Ggrand]

Hello Elizabeth, Croix, Pam, Quirky,

Elizabeth can I just say that, your struggles are real everyone has different struggles and please believe me when I say yours are real, and your in need of support.

Just curious, as I always am, is it possible to block the vents in the other rooms to stop the flow into them?

Do you enjoy walking, it's supposed to help with mindfulness as well, by looking at and taking in your surroundings, like your other post you wrote, your walk sounded so peaceful, that's what got me wanting to try walking, that alone is proof that you are helping others, Thank you.

Be kind and gentle to yourself.

Kindness only,

Karen..(Grandy).