Everything is so hard

[Karen71]

I was am a student tafe.

I put all assignments in.

I completed all work.

i had problems with one assignment whick shook me.

Mental health assignment .

I cried itried i tried to tell the teacher it was to close to my own life story.

She dosent like me so shrugged my attempt off.

I failed my test in the last week.

18mnths for nothing.

They dont care that im torn apart.

4 wrong on acute means to bad to sad.

I tried so very hard.pateints loved me.

Teachers not.

My first test was 1 week after abdominal surgery my sevond the same week that i learnt my son was needing a op to save his sight.his 8.with aspergus.

I tried so veryhard.i studied till 2 am most nights because i couldnt when kids were awake.

All day its tantrums.all night its study.

I have always suffered from depression and ptsd.

I sucked it up took the bull by the horns and did my best.

I alwayfail.idont belong.

It sucks.im tied im defeated.im so alone.

I hate life peole are mean.

No im not in danger im simply done.

Why are people so mean.why do they lie and alienate.why dont i be long.

My teacher simply felt i shouldnt pass.

What is that.

Just because i make a complaint they make my life hell.

My life is already full of stress i didnt need them to add to it.

Im shattered.

Ive creid for 4 weeks now.the skin around my eyes is starting to blister.

Why are eople so cruel.

My son cant play with other children.

He has to stay 1 meter away from all kids at school.

Seriously why dont people realise the pooain they give to others.

Im sohurt.so very sad.

I want to give up but i cabt because of the kids.

Im sostied.i dont likwe this world its mean and nasty.is

[demonblaster]

Talk to us Karen so we know you're ok hun please

Not Ok as such, I know darl

How you doin today

[Karen71]

Im sorry i did a reply but seems not correctly as isnt showing.

im really exhausted so wont say much. It seems its even hard to type nd submit.

;(

[topsy_]

Hi Karen

I checked in yesterday & saw your sad face. How is today going?

I am concerned for you. However there is no pressure to reply.

I just feel like I know you a bit already & I know how much I would have appreciated having the support & caring of a community like BB when I went through my worst times

Just take things one step at a time. If the future seems too overwhelming then only think of today. If today is too much to contemplate then only think of an hour.

Sometimes I would just cope with 10 minutes & at the same time refused to think of the next 10 minutes till it arrived.

Take care Karen. We are all here believing in you & hoping for you.

Kind wishes, Lyn.

[demonblaster]

Thanks Karen, understand, the exhaustion is very hard, hopefully outta that you can start now getting some better sleep, makes a world of difference when we're caught up.
We have more strength mentally & physically. Goes South when we're tired & exhausted.

I read here posts can take up to 12 hrs, so maybe that's why it hasn't yet come through.
Otherwise they'll email you & you can see reasons original post and links to info about what we can/can't say.

They run this site very well from what I've seen so far. A need for people here who are fragile/broken. Some have learnt to overcome. (Suggest read there when you're up to it darl, could get some coping ideas.)

What if on the days you can't talk, (that's cool 🙂 like you did,pop in regularly so we know you're ok

There are people who care hun.
You're not alone, you've got us

Hope you got a better sleep

[demonblaster]

Hey karen

How you doin darl, gettin some sleep?

If you can hun could you even if you don't talk much pop in here to let us know you're ok.

People DO care Karen 🙂

I'll still be here but maybe not quite as often, just had bad news yesterday of a friend passed away suddenly, have some stuff to do before the funeral. She was only 46, not fair.

[Karen71]

My thoughts are with you.Im sorry for your loss.Take care of yourself first otherwise everything else is for naught.

[demonblaster]

Good to hear from you Karen 🙂

Thanks darl & yeah looking after myself as much as po, the BP (Bipolar) wipes ya silly but at least so called normal times in between Phew

I know it's all blagghhh for you atm but don't hold back to let it all out here anytime darl.

Thanks for popping in

Be kind to yourself too

Have you been able to talk to a professional yet?

[topsy_]

Hi Karen, just catching up with you. I'm so sorry you're still doing it so tough.

What sort of meals do you like to cook? I'm not fantastic at cooking & I need a recipe to follow. I wish I was one of those people who could just make things. I ask family how they make such-and-such & they say "oh a bit of this & some of that". That doesn't help me at all!! I need the precise number of cups etc. LOL!!

Do you have any favourite crafts. I'm trying to crochet a cat cave. My Nanna taught me to crochet when I was a teenager but I never learnt how to follow a pattern. I'm having so much trouble with this pattern. I've temporarily put it away but I should get it back out & finish it. The cat won't know if it's not perfect!!

I hope you might just be finding a few seconds of peace each day. That's the depression lying to you when your mind tells you you won't get better. It's really tough but it is possible to get better. Just hang on, remember.

Please know that I am thinking of you, Lyn.

[MickeyM]

Hi sweetheart

I'm sorry I haven't posted for a few days.

Children can be hard work, I've got 2 and I love them to bits, but it can be hard.

As far as your family saying for you to get over it, remember that there is a reason why Beyond Blue was started, anxiety and depression is not something people can 'get over', Please know that everyone who has logged onto this website or phoned the number already knows this.

Please make a phone call, Karen.

You are worthy.

You are loved.

You have achieved so much.

There is good in life, that I can promise you.

Please phone your GP or Beyond Blue or Lifeline.

Mickey

[MickeyM]

Hi Demon blaster

Just read through some posts-thinking of you, too.

Mickey