Everything is so hard

[Karen71]

I was am a student tafe.

I put all assignments in.

I completed all work.

i had problems with one assignment whick shook me.

Mental health assignment .

I cried itried i tried to tell the teacher it was to close to my own life story.

She dosent like me so shrugged my attempt off.

I failed my test in the last week.

18mnths for nothing.

They dont care that im torn apart.

4 wrong on acute means to bad to sad.

I tried so very hard.pateints loved me.

Teachers not.

My first test was 1 week after abdominal surgery my sevond the same week that i learnt my son was needing a op to save his sight.his 8.with aspergus.

I tried so veryhard.i studied till 2 am most nights because i couldnt when kids were awake.

All day its tantrums.all night its study.

I have always suffered from depression and ptsd.

I sucked it up took the bull by the horns and did my best.

I alwayfail.idont belong.

It sucks.im tied im defeated.im so alone.

I hate life peole are mean.

No im not in danger im simply done.

Why are people so mean.why do they lie and alienate.why dont i be long.

My teacher simply felt i shouldnt pass.

What is that.

Just because i make a complaint they make my life hell.

My life is already full of stress i didnt need them to add to it.

Im shattered.

Ive creid for 4 weeks now.the skin around my eyes is starting to blister.

Why are eople so cruel.

My son cant play with other children.

He has to stay 1 meter away from all kids at school.

Seriously why dont people realise the pooain they give to others.

Im sohurt.so very sad.

I want to give up but i cabt because of the kids.

Im sostied.i dont likwe this world its mean and nasty.is

[demonblaster]

good to hear from you sweet

Keep riding this tsunami hun

Are you getting much sleep

[MickeyM]

Oh, Karen

You've had so many curveballs thrown at you.

Something I've realized along my journey is that our beliefs need to be examined to make sure they are built on truth. This is so important, and can be quite confronting. But I really think you need some more truth..

Youre not a burden

You deserve to be successful

You already are successful. Look at how many units of your course you've successfully completed.

These units will appear on your statement of attainment.

You have a beautiful future ahead of you

When do you see your counselor next?

Micket

[demonblaster]

compassion, wisdom, support Mickey

Everything you said makes a lot of sense

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tc

[demonblaster]

Mickeys post reminds me Karen keep forgetting to say

Depression puts a wave of self doubt over us, as Mickeys saying & Im starting to learn this as well slowly it's not necessarily right.

The beginning of healing & getting stronger is believing in ourselves. The liking/loving ourselves, we all have good & bad points. We need to work out our goods and keep reminding ourselves, working on the bad stuff yeah but later.

[Croix]

Dear Karen~
All on this page say it will get better - I do too.

I've PTSD, depression, anxiety.

I have been the same place you are at, no hope, wanting it to just end - peace.
I have worried about going and leaving hurt behind in the ones I love.
I have been frightened of the act.

If I can say it will get better - if those on this page can say it will get better

Maybe it is true?

You don't have to understand why -I didn't
You don't have to know how it will get better -it will anyway.

You are a source of comfort in this world, do not deny others what you give

Croix

:)

[demonblaster]

well articulated Croix

Karen (can I call you Kaz)

you've landed at the right place, we all have.

So much strength in support & wisdom that people give and have through going through rot too.

It's not just words darl

Believe you can pull outta this crap

We'll see ya through

[demonblaster]

Hey Karen 🙂

How ya feeling today

I suggest keep talking here, may not seem it but can be therapeutic

Stress needs to come outta the body, it manifests.

Do you get outta the house much?

Excercise?

Distraction?

What do you like doing? Hobbies, tv, reading, music, sport, walking, art, creating etc

[MickeyM]

Hi Karen

Does your family offer help and/or support with your children? I know it's hard studying while you have young kids, it's a real juggling act.

We're here for you, we care about you.

Sending hugs 🤗

Mickey

[demonblaster]

Karen have you spoken to anyone yet (professionals)

[Karen71]

Mm no I havnt got an appointment for a month.

No I dont go out of the house anymore.

My family says to get over it and i look like shit.

Nope couldnt be bothered showering to buggered.

To tied to walk around block or shop ohouse.just sit.

Lots of pies for the kids to eat not like they eat what i cook anyway.

My body has giveup.it dosent care.

My mind sometimes goes weird and sort of fuzzy

I am trying to suck it up.

I wont ring you goes though. I dont want police to turn up or even know

As for it gets better i tried it dosent.

I feel as though im just a nudge away..

I think im already half gone anyway.

Just going through the paces.

Still crying it dosent stop.

As for what people think of me vile and the teacher whom agreed.well i am but you know something im a hell of alot kinder than they eill ever be and it was forced not my fault.

I am thankful for your kind words.

Im just