DEVASTATED

[Falling_Angel]

Hi i havent been on for a while but im at the end of my tether

im sick of ppl assuming things about my life and then actually making me believe they are honest and true& yet they lie straight to my face especially since i put all my trust in them and thats really hard for me and also,especially since its a obvious misunderstanding on the other persons behalf ????????????????

Im confused,angry ,upset and basically plain devaststed. Why why why ??I try soo hard to please those i care about just to have it slapped in my face... I honestly give up ....!!!!!!!!!!! i really dont think im getting the proper support i need atm and then to have someone close to me run me down and not remember anything ive done for them .. thinkng im just a taker (wow) anyway this person means the world to me and i dont know how to go about working out the problem especially if i feel the replies arent honest omg how did i allow myself to get shattered like this or let myself ....!!and all because of a miscontrude overheard conversation that had nothing to do with this person and also was taken the wrong way,without discussing it with me which would have made it all different omg

anyway guess im asking how do i stop the suicidal thoughts thats are currently and have been for a few days consuming my mind ? i now feel like a noone like ive been put in the same catergory this person sees nearly everyone ? it hurts and im just gob smacked

any suggestions if anyone reads this please?? HELP

[startingnew]

hi FA its sooooo good to hear from you

ive missed you

aww you poor thing! i really hope you get better soon!

and yeah thats the same as me go down very quickly

im struggling atm esp after todays therapy session but im alive and ill live to see another day

giant get well hugs to you xxxoooxxxoooxxx

[Falling_Angel]

hi SN

how are you? anything good happen today?

im feeling alot better but still 2 weeks recovery but going better now , hope u are well and somehow its all sorting itself out? well i wish it would for u . i cant type alot so ill leave it at that and plz in your reply let me what you have been doing and how the sick horse is and how everything else is plz hugs FA XO -HUGS-XX

[startingnew]

i hope the recovery is going well for you FA..?

im ok for now, i still ahvent managed to tell my mother about the new AD tablets oops but there was something good happen today, i wrote it on my other thread but your welcome to respond here if your more comfortable or not respond at all, thats fine too. Hugs to you

the sick horse is still being treated hopefully not for too much longer. its a pain in the bum for both me and her as she hates being in the smaller paddock so im hoping not much longer now

hmm what have i been up to? more to the question what havent i been up to?

lots of apointments, lots of arguments, lots of working, caring responsibilities and babysitting, having a clean out and getting a new horse (more about that on the other thread

how are you going?

[startingnew]

I havent heard you for abit FA

Im hoping everything is going ok

Hugs thinking of you

[startingnew]

hi FA

i havent heard from you for a while now

i hope everythings ok and know im here for you if you need

sending you lots of hugs and love

[startingnew]

Hugs FA

missing you

[Falling_Angel]

Hi

I’m back 😊👌💕🌹

[startingnew]

it is so good to see you again!

How are you going?

[Falling_Angel]

I didn’t expect a reply so quickly

im good as can be

how are you?

im off to bed I’ll check in tomorrow

great 👍 to hear from you 💕🌹

[startingnew]

It is good to see you FA

As good as can be is usually what someone says when they are struggling.... whats been happening for you?

Im as good as i can be too.