DEVASTATED

[Falling_Angel]

Hi i havent been on for a while but im at the end of my tether

im sick of ppl assuming things about my life and then actually making me believe they are honest and true& yet they lie straight to my face especially since i put all my trust in them and thats really hard for me and also,especially since its a obvious misunderstanding on the other persons behalf ????????????????

Im confused,angry ,upset and basically plain devaststed. Why why why ??I try soo hard to please those i care about just to have it slapped in my face... I honestly give up ....!!!!!!!!!!! i really dont think im getting the proper support i need atm and then to have someone close to me run me down and not remember anything ive done for them .. thinkng im just a taker (wow) anyway this person means the world to me and i dont know how to go about working out the problem especially if i feel the replies arent honest omg how did i allow myself to get shattered like this or let myself ....!!and all because of a miscontrude overheard conversation that had nothing to do with this person and also was taken the wrong way,without discussing it with me which would have made it all different omg

anyway guess im asking how do i stop the suicidal thoughts thats are currently and have been for a few days consuming my mind ? i now feel like a noone like ive been put in the same catergory this person sees nearly everyone ? it hurts and im just gob smacked

any suggestions if anyone reads this please?? HELP

[startingnew]

Hey FA

How are you going?

Hows that infection clearing up?

[Falling_Angel]

Hi SN how are u? sorry i havent been on i wwrote on your thread im still on antibiotics and i have a good day and bad as usual so i guess they working slowly and i just have to look after myself ive had no energy or want to be sociable for last few days just feel really tired and weird.....but how are you plz let me know whats going on on either here or your thread ill be in touch -hugs- FA X

[startingnew]

wow this infection really got you a good one didnt it!

im sorry you havent felt well

i ahvent been well either ive withdrawn from everything including treatment

[startingnew]

Hope you're ok FA

[Falling_Angel]

Hello SN , wow its been a while ..... im sorry i havent been on for ages just so much going on and i needed a break............im still on antibiotics my operation is due on tuesday providing they think im well enough on monday to operate on ....fingers crossed....ive been having lots of family drama and im slowly going scitz....

anyway ive had a quick loook at your thread but i feel more comfy repyling on here .........You have been doing it really tough havent you ...!!!!!!

So how are you today?

i have missed talking to u , big -hugs- FA XO

[startingnew]

Yes FA it has been a while
ive been pretty worried about you

im glad you took a
break to recouperate though and I hope your doing a little better now
ive been abit absent
myself lately and theres no need to apologise.

Do you wanna talk
about whats going on for you




you were suppsoe to
have your operation today? How did you go? Thinking of you and
wishing you a speedy recovery




we can just stick to
this thread its fine- whatever your most comfortable with
yeah ive been doing
it extremely tough

ive missed talking to you too

[Falling_Angel]

Hey SN, SSOOOOoooo good to hear from you ....yes ive read most of it but get confused between threads i did have my operation and still only got half done aarggg..but should help with pain a little .Thankyou for asking... i know your not in a good place right now and i will check everyday to try and catch you,ok id like to know how you are going and what support etc you are getting for yourself please ? if you dont mind ?

im here annoyed cant do much but lay down for a week 😕 but hopefully worth the trouble 🙂

then baby steps

Your in my thoughts big -hugs- FA XO

[startingnew]

Good morning FA

im so happy to hear
form you too. I was worried about you cause you hadnt been on and I
knew the last time we spoke you werent in a good headspace.

Thats ok ill type
onto my thread but you can respond on here. I dont mind and only what
your comfortable with.
I really hope that
operation has worked for you even slightly.

How are you going?
Id like to know how your going abit more as well
and I dont mind you
asking questions- ask as many as you like and ill answer as best I
can




im still the same
though I ave made some decsions about my health and treatments as
well. I just hope its the right one. Ive typed it up onto my other
thread but you can respond here thats fine, theres just a bit there
and it would be hard to write back up... that has what im hoping to
do as well as the support im getting as well

[startingnew]

how are you going FA?

[Falling_Angel]

HEY SN XOX im still here ,ive had the most horrible week with ill health migraines and hell on my doorsteps

im going ok today i think i can get better but go down hill soooo fast argggg how are you? big big -hugs- FA XOX