Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[demonblaster]

Hey there ☺ hope you got a good long sleep darlin.

No need for replies to my posts. Just look after yourself beautiful please

👀 u

😴 peacefully honey

💜 4 evs

👩‍❤️‍👩 bbffs are always close

🗯 all the time

🌈 see the colours darlin

🌬 breathe... the flowers⚘in ... weeds out precious

🤝 we're always here with you Grandy love 🤗💗

PubAok gorgeous lysvm yadimh

🐧

[demonblaster]

👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🤝🗯💝🤜splat🤛🌈🤗😚

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Paws, Tess and all..🤗..

Thank you so much for your hugs and care..I so much appreciate it...I stayed home today...Betty is staying over at her grand daughter place tonight...The Drs etc disconnected the oxygen today..he is in a coma..I think this is time for family only....

Was disappointed with all the squabbling yesterday with who gets what...I left their earlier then I planned to yesterday in a bad way yesterday...Money and assets brings out the worse in people...I didn’t like what was being talked about yesterday... especially when he is still alive...sad very sad how some/most people react/think when one will not be around for much longer...Makes me think that people really don’t show their care/ love that much at all while they are living, I mean that they are not their for them while they are alive..but once they are near the end, everyone shows up..sons and daughters that haven’t seen him for 10+ years and now start giving him the love and care they should have given him throughout his life...Why..come now...because they want or think they are entitled to his assets, property, home and money...and start up arguments/about who gets what..anyway enough...I’m staying home now...when Betty needs me...I’ll be their for her...

I had a face to face Drs appointment today..told her about my groins..having a pelvic x-ray later this week..Dr..says she wants to confirm, what she thinks is oesto arthritis , in both hips...and begin physio..

Mentally I’m doing fine..just resting this afternoon, might try adding a leaf or two to my masterpiece 😂..and maybe cook a yummy curry...If I can get me off this lounge..I am so sure that the night fairies put some type of super glue on it through the night, so that once I lay on it..I am stuck to it😁.

I hope everyone has a nice day today...and live it the best you can..

Bbff..sending you my Deep Love and care..💜🦋🧸🤗...Life is too short..so much wish we could have a cuppa together...as well as with all the other beautiful people here...

Love, care and hugs to everyone listening..💜🦋🤗.

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..🦄👼..🕊🌱..

[demonblaster]

Darlin Grandy 🤗

I know you're doing it harder atm. I'm assuming from the situation atm 🤗

I'm so sorry sweetyheart.

It's ok if you can't post words it's hard to but would it be ok please if you could just do an emoji/s honey so we know how you're doing.

We're not allowed to pressure which is fair, but I'm worried about you and you mostly post daily.

You'll get through like you do hun. Unfortunately that doesnt help much for the now does it.

That's why we're here standing with you 🤝 with respect love 💜 and friendship.

Always Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🤝🗯💗😚🤗

🌈

✅.ok

😢 .ok/struggling

😭 .not okay

😷 .need to talk, but hard

🤝 .talk/reassure me

❓.Ask questions plz.

So much love 😊🤗

[demonblaster]

Hi everyone 😊

Oh Grandy I'm so glad.
Was worried about you because of triggers and Bettys sadness.
What a relief you're ok mentally. Good girl 🤗

It makes me feel like that too Grandz.
It's the pits when people carry on like that over inheritance.
Poor form and it's so common.

I'm glad it worked out that you could be home the whole sitch is hard isnt it.
I hope Bettys holding as well as she can.

So if docs right about osteo would it be that and bursitis?
Physio I hope helps if that's what needs to be done

Cool so glad you've started on your Masterpiece.
You're so funny Floss 😂 ...oop meant to tell you about that batch of Pixies.. they're Grempixes..rare breed they're a cross between Gremlins and Pixies.
Quite cute really but just a widdle bit too playfully naughty.

Being such a good friend to you and that I forgot.. oopsy 🙄...that they're those ones 😁.. I blew them off my hand and sent them to you thinking they could help look after you..uh oh. Sowwy bbff.

Yum curry I showed Mr 😍 and he helped with it how I do curry it's nice.
I make a White sauce is that how you do?

You are so right about it being too short. That's how I feel. Every day goes by is less time in rl that we could be having and how awesome to see others from here.

Really appreciate you gorgeous and love you a tiny bit 😂 twicken live you tonnes always precious 🤗

Hope your poor colourful hands on the improve.
Funny you Mentioni G Your Hips I was thinking about the bursitis one yesterday and meant to ask.
How's the heart behaving and asthma huns?

Hope you're sleeping well darlin 🤗👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🤝🗯🌈🤜Pow🤛

[Tess2]

Dear Grandy,

you are being a very good friend.

i agree with you about the swooping of family at the time of death. It can really bring out the worst in people.

Why cant people just be there for the dying person and value their presence for a while. Things never make up for the lost person.

you take care, I hope you made the curry

tess

[demonblaster]

Goodnight 😴 beautiful friend ☺

Hope todays been good for you darlin and that you've found a way to unstick that glue on the couch oh yeh hearing you huns not easy by a long shot but when we heal more we'll find that'll sort itself too I guess.

Anyhoo just popped in to make you a lovely hot cuppa and give you some dark choc Tim tams yuk yuk dark choc but hey they're all yours gorgeous 🍎 there we go 😁

Okey dokelly now you're all snug in your lovely warm flannys blanky oh good you have that on glad to see ☺ and I've put a little knitted hat on your head to keep your ears nice and warm. Tucking you in precious friend nigh nite and to everyone.

Leave the gentle candle light oozing out uplifting aromas of Lavender peace and the steength of feeling very loved.

Sleep well be well my dear friend. Adore you. Always 👀👩‍❤️‍👩💜🍫🍎🦄🤝🗯🤗😚

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi,👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Tess and all......🤗.

I spent yesterday at Betty’s place, she rang me and asked if I could just be with her, until her son arrived late yesterday afternoon....

Her ex passed away at 1.30am this morning...😢.

Betty rang me again this morning in tears and asked if I could stay with her again today..I am going down soon...I am concerned for her...

Sorry it’s a bit hard to talk right now.😢..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

[demonblaster]

Dear Grandy it's all very hard isn't it losing people and being there for the people left behind.

I'm sorry for your sadness and Bettys too.

Thanks for letting us know.

It would be a worry seeing Betty so sad.

Sendi g you strength and light in hugs 🤗 precious friend to many.

See you when you're up to posting lovely. You're a good friend.

Loads of love sweetyheart 👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🤝🗯😚

[Paw Prints]

Hello Grandy,

Here are some more gentle hugs lass.

Paws