Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Lee lee 73]

Hello beautiful Grandy,

I know you have so much going on right now so no need to reply if you don't feel up to it. ..

Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you, thinking of what is ahead for you. I want to say so much more ....but I won't...... I'm here. ...we're here if you need to talk. ..or even want us to act the goat...so to speak. ...

With so much love hugs and care 🤗❤😍🤗.

Lee

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Amanda, Lee and all.

Well tomorrow is nearly here, it’s rolled around so quickly, like it’s been only seconds since I found out Monday is my day to go into hospital...I would again like to say how sorry 🙇‍♀️I am for causing you all to worry about me...

I asked my other neighbour to watch my dogs..she said that she can’t because she and my other neighbour don’t get on...Okay only other option I had was to approach my angry fence lady....I know she cares for animals because I hear her daily playing with her two fur buddies and talking to her feathered buddies as well....It was so hard for me to do this, but I did..she is a very controlling person, but will feed and water them daily...as long as I give her all their food to her..because she doesn’t want to enter my yard....I agreed to that...Betty will pop over mine when she feels strong enough to sit with them for an hour or so....I hope my fur babies don’t forget me😢...

Im not sure what’s going to happen to me from tomorrow onwards. I’m scared so much, panic attacks are happening today as well as so many 😢..sleepless nights are going to make me more emotional tomorrow as hard as I try the thoughts are not being quiet enough for me to sleep for a few nights...I know your all here for me and my appreciation and gratitude is second to none...Thank you all so very much....

Im a bit of a mess atm, but will be okay...so please don’t worry, you all need to care for yourselves, that’s so very very important to me...You all matter to me so very much...I’m not sure on how much I will be allowed to use my iPad/phone to talk to you all..I know I need to be able to talk here daily, You have all become a huge part of my life...

Please take care of yourselves the best you can, be gentle and kind to you as you are to me....

Deebi, I’ve posted on yours, before here....PUBOK dear friend...Love you..very much...

Love and hugs to all..💜💜🤗🤗, wish they were real, I really need them...sigh..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄💜👼...

[demonblaster]

Love and thoughts always beautiful lady.

Pubok Grandy 🤗🤝

✨💑💜💗👼🦄⚘🕊

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi,

I have posted here and your earlier...so needed to hear from you today...and Lee..Thank you very much...

Grandy..

[Guest8901]

Dear Grandy.

I posted earlier, but its not through yet. When it does arrive, it should slot in 4 posts up. Its been busy here this arvo with everyone checking in with you. Not knowing when you will hit the road, I hope you get my earlier post before you leave.

Please stay safe beautiful, and check in here when you can or when you wish to. Hoping you will be able to keep in touch with us while in the hospital.

Amanda

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Amanda, Lee and all.

Thank you all for your lovely supportive, kind , caring posts....Mine also arrived late...3 up from here..

You all being here has touched my heart....

Im looking at the iPad through 💧....

Love and big hugs..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄💜👼...

[Lee lee 73]

….You will be okay lovely lady, it will all be okay...more comforting hugs to you 🤗🤗🤗🤗.

Please take care of you ❤❤❤

Lee

[demonblaster]

🤗 hello my beautiful brave little Angel wow you're a true survivor.

So proud of you asking fence neighbour good on you and no sweetheart your beautiful furs will never forget you. As you do them they love you too... so easy loving you Grandy 🤗

I'm so sorry you're having panic attacks they're awful to go through. Try and do your breathing as often as you can I do batches of 5 but 3's enough. How bout we do some now sweety.

I'm always thinking of you darlin and been wondering how you are. Care so much hun.

You're so beautiful thinking about us when you're going to be doing this. Grandy you're up to this and as a result you'll have a better life honey.

Love you very deeply and always🌜 👀🤝👂🏻💑✨💜🦄🕊
🤗😚🌛

[Guest8901]

Dear Grandy

All caught up now with the delayed posts.

I'm really proud of you Grandy .. you are being so very courageous about all this.

Kya and Ebony will be okay. Little dogs are very adaptive, and as soon as you're out of sight they have the instinct to temporarily attach themselves to another person. Part of survival I guess. It doesnt mean they wont miss you though. Your fur babies will most definitely remember you Grandy.

Pity your other neighbour wouldnt care for the doggies. But it sounds like this one cares for animals and will ensure they are okay. And if Betty is able to call in occasionally to spend some 'cuddle time' with them, then that will be even better. Just know you've done your best for them. And your reunion post hospital will be all the more special.

I have high hopes for success for you Grandy. I feel a sense of excitement for you.

Please take care travelling tomorrow. And I hope you have access to your phone or ipod while in hospital. Its possible use may be restricted, but I doubt they would want to cut you off from usual supports.

Good luck Grandy ... you can do this.

Amanda 💕

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy,

I just wanted to send you my blessings and well wishes for your stay in that house on the hospital grounds. I know you’re understandably feeling a little nervous, but like all your other lovely friends have said, it’s hopefully a place for you to be nurtured and to receive some much needed professional care and support 🙂

I think you’re very courageous to do this, and we all couldn’t be prouder...

A loving hug from me, and I’m gifting you a special package to take with you there...some fresh clothes, little sachets of scented dried flowers for your drawers, colouring books, colouring pencils and a little gold four leaf clover broach for luck 😉

More hugs and much love,

Peppy xoxo