Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy (and a wave to all),

It sounds like you’ve a tough decision to make...I know potentially being away from your precious fur babies would of be hard. But as Lee said, they will have each other 🙂

The weather must have been pretty nice for you yesterday. Yes, you would be one wealthy lady if you charged the bird an admission fee. Lol.

I hope today is one of the better days for you wirh lots of cuddles from you fur darlings and many bird visitors 🙂

Gentle hugs...

love and comfort,

Peppy xoxo

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi,, Lee, Amanda, Peppy...and all...

Thank you all for your lovely posts...

Lee.....Yes my dogs really are not hard to care for, Mornings they sound like a couple of baby elephants running through my house after they wake up....😁 Ebony wakes her mummy Kya by grooming her eyes.l.🤗. Then it chasings and sliding all over the place, really for little dogs they sound like baby elephant 🐘..then when they have finish...Ebony starts kissing my eyes until I open them...😁.. They have the run of house and yard are are always very active...not like me....So really no need to walk them for exercise....I😁..💓

Peppy....Yes...I just wish my mind would accept what I need/have to do....My overly chatty mind, keeps questioning itself and then the debate starts all over again.....Hard to win when we are questioning ourselves constantly..I suppose that’s where self confidence comes into things...by just saying okay then being about to close of our thoughts on that problem..........I hope you are doing okay gentle Peppy...

Amanda....I hope your doing okay today, and you tried the cool wet hand towel....your in my thoughts as you all are...

Deebi....I’m so very proud of you, with your ciggies,,it’s hard to do....I should have made celery and carrot sticks to munch on when the cravings hit...instead of my favourite chocolate, candy, etc....but the extra weight will come off in time....I’m trying not to let that get me down......Lucky!...I Work op shop....I went up 2 sizes extra in


I’m very happy my bird bath lifted you a little yesterday...There were cockatoos, galahs, sparrows, magpies, rosellas, parrots, just so many yesterday..they were eating drinking, then having a good play in the bath....I had to fill it a few times yesterday, they were a constant all day, .I hope your doing good Deebi...Love you very much....💜...🌜👼🦄🌛..

I hope everyone is doing good today, and you have some good memories to store away...

Love and hugs..💜💜🤗🤗..Oh why not..a 🍫 each. I “found”. them here...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄💜👼..

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Grandy,

Kya and Ebony sound sooooooo gorgeous 💗💗. What precious little darlins 🤗🤗🤗. So funny they sound like baby elephants when they run. And the skidding.. 😆😆. So cute Ebony kisses your eyes to wake you up 🐶😍. Ohhhhh I just love animals...... you said on mine, animals are soul savers they sure are 🤗. What beautiful birdies you have at your place Grandy. They obviously know where the love is ❤ 😊.

I hope you were able to rest your thoughts today lovely. You're a beautiful person Grandy, you have a beautiful soul. You are stronger than you think you are.

I hope you are having a restful evening and have a peaceful sleep. I also hope you have a good day at work tomorrow.

Sending you big warm hugs. You are in my thoughts often Grandy. ❤❤

Lee

[Lee lee 73]

Hello Demonblaster,

I'm so glad you like my avatar. I got it from a cat page I follow on fb. My first cat adopted me and so 'came out of nowhere' and so started my love for burmese. Iszy, my cat now, is the only cat I've had from kitten and she is definitely my everything. Just thought I'd share that with you. Hope you are well DB.

Love to everyone ❤

Lee

[demonblaster]

Hey gorgeous just wanted to pass through and say night night ☺🤗😚

Same hope works a good day lovey and that you're tickers settling? How's the mood you're sounding overall pretty amazing, your mindsets strong Grandy good on you.

See you tomoz for a cuppa cuddles laughs love and friendship beautiful.

🤣 baby elephants and doesnt little Ebony start the day for everyone that's so cute. I remember Starwolf saying her dogs doing the same licking the eyes. Sounds gentle and a loving gesture.

Thanks for looking out for me so well dear friend. Here for you too darlin with love and appreciation 🌜🎂🌛oop .. 💑💜🕊

Nice hearing your story with your puddy tat Lee. Burmese are gorgeous aren't they, they're long hair eh? Glad you have eachother ☺

Night all you lovely people sleep well and happies tomoz 💗💜💕❤💚🖤👀👂🏻

[Ggrand]

Hello Lee...

Lee...Thank you they really are...They are so special to me..all animals are...., I love looking at there eyes,, the innocents you see in them...😁...the birdies know where the food and water is..😁..The big gum tree across the road not sure of height but I would guess at around 20metres...it houses the birds of a day...just a few wing flaps and there at the food..

I missed dart again this week.....maybe I should just give up even trying to go anymore....Work tomorrow..usually mhn appointment after....but no appointment has been made....we close at 1pm tomorrow because of Melbourne Cup....I don’t like horse racing I think it’s wrong. A horse should be running free in the bush, meadows, forests, not racing around and around a dirty track, breathing nothing but dust...so not fair on the horse...

Thank you for your kind and caring thoughts Lee...they are so very much appreciated and taken into my heart....

Deebi..Trying hard to stay positive, scared so much to answer the phone....😁 Phone anxiety I think is beginning to happen now.....I’m so much looking forward for tomorrow...Cuppa, cuddles, laughs, friendship...sound great Deebi......PUBOK....Love you dear friend......The cat picture on Lee’s avatar has amazing eyes.. mischievous and cute..but also sad...

I hope everyone has a good sleep tonight..Sweet dream lovely people....

Love and caring hugs...💜🤗.
👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄💜👼.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy (and a wave to all),

I hope your day working at the op shop goes well today 🙂

It’s nice that you’ve some special activities planned with DB today. She sure is great company!

Thank you for thinking of me too earlier. Your well wishes are always very much appreciated.

Love and care,

Peppy xoxo

[demonblaster]

Hey gorgeous Grandy and all ☺

Nice hearing things you say and about animals and the innocence in their eyes that's beautiful hun. I'm scared with dogs cause of the challenge but I guess that's agro ones cause brothers gorgeous lab no way and about horses, your compassion runs deep Grandy for people as well. You're souls pure sweetness, loven that and sweetheart 🤗

Oh darl I nearlybwent into full blown major depressive meltdown when you said you should have cut up celery and carrot sticks 😆 instead of choccy or sweets for me 😁

I mentioned your mood being stable, I understand and agree about self confidence causing internal conflict which on a lot of things I'm yip lets go like lately but it is annoying isnt it but I think it could be healthier and healing rather than just thinking no and only negatives, could be us thought challenging which is drawing on strength. I was meaning how well you seem to be going off the meds, really proud Grandy you seem to be keeping on the better side of hard.

Thought up a 🎁 in usual pretty quick way but I'm working on Peppys its been sooo long coming I decided to work on it on paper so hers first then yours my gorgeous friend.

Hope your day wasn't too stressful today and lovey don't give up on darts is my thoughts, it's ok just go when you're up to it but at least occassionalky because it's easing you around people and the more they see you and you them theory is it gets easier and better sweetness.

Many thoughts darlin ☺ if it wasn't for you and I mean this, other absolutely beautiful people here how I'm improving and coping daily life and bonus your deep loving friendship and care Grandy I'm not sure how to say but I'm so incredibly grateful for you all and bb. Filling an extremely deep void. Thank you

Deep L&A (love and appreciation) 🌜🍫🌛doe.. wrong one again...💑💜🤝

Pubok always 🤗😚

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Peppy and all...

Thank you for your kind words to me Deebi...You make me want to hide me....but I am getting better at times..

Oh poor Deebi..Full blown major depressive meltdown....😂😆😁...I know what you mean with carrot and celery sticks vs chocolate and candy....give me the chocolate first...

Work was okay, only worked until 1pm. It wasn’t busy in the shop but out back where I work was non stop....Kept my mind busy...

Trying hard to stay stable with my mood, oh can go down quickly atm, very emotional but okay....just trying to keep all negatives away, when they come trying to turn them around....Hard without meds can feel the difference, really emotional without them...but I’m okay in saying that...

Ditto. Deebi....Without you, umm as you know you pulled me up from the bottom 3 times..I wanted to go the opposite way , you turned me around......My gratitude, love and respect for you is the very highest.....I really do love you very much...........Everyone...here has my respect...you all struggle with your own mh yet are all helping each other...Thats Gold....You are all amazing people...

My words tonight are a struggle to put together to make sense..its taken over 2.5 hours to write this..

Love and hugs 💜🤗..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄💜👼...

[Ggrand]

Oops Deebi.....

😁..Looking forward to my present.....😢oh I’m really sorry, I’m still polishing your third present..I won’t take much longer..I pwomish.... 🤗....soon....I haven’t forgotten...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...🦄💜👼.