Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi...

It is the right appointment card...I showed it to my mhn......she was shocked and upset as well.......It's okay, because I give up trying to help me now..I tried for a long time....start getting better then this psych...3 times now she has done this to me....shows me how much I'm worth, I already knew it, I was only kidding myself thinking things would get better for me.......She has no idea how much she has hurt me this time.....Even you Deebi are questioning my honesty/sanity, and that hurts unbelievably...one thing I don't ever do is tell untruths..... I

[Doolhof]

Dear Grandy,

My best wishes go out to you dear precious lady. I have no idea why your psychologist is behaving this way and cancelling your appointments on you. Hopefully the MHN was able to help you in some way.

I wonder if there is some way you can make the psychologist accountable for her actions. Does she work independently or is she part of a medical practice? Could you see if there is a manager at the practice so you could write a letter of complaint.

It might not get you anywhere but it may help you to feel better and help others who may be experiencing the same issue with this person.

Dear Grandy, the psychologist cancelling has nothing to do with who you are, it has to do with the psychologist!

We all deserve to be heard, acknowledged, validated and assisted. It stinks when people make it difficult for this to happen.

Please don't give up Grandy. Dealing with mental health issues alone can be a struggle! Says me who hasn't rebooked to see my Dr nor my psychologist! Ha. Ha.

Thinking of you Grandy, "HI Everyone Else" from Dools

[Guest8901]

Dear Grandy,

I am about to head off for my psych apt, so this will be brief. But I am concerned about your latest post, so wanted to quickly respond.

I am so sorry to hear about your psych doing that to you. That is so bad, so unprofessional. Just because she is the only psych available for miles around does not give her the right to treat anybody the way she is treating you. I agree with what Dools says, in that it is not you, this is a problem with your psych. I feel it is highly likely that she is like this with others as well. So please do not take this personally. I think this psych lady has a major problem herself, and should not be in a caring profession at all. Please ... please ... do not let this tear you apart! Do not give up. Keep fighting the good fight. You have essentially been doing well on your own lately anyway, without her. So keep doing that, keep doing all the things you know work for you.

I honestly think that, with support from your MHN you need to ditch this psych. As much as it goes against my usual advice, I really think that she is doing more harm to you than good. Perhaps your MHN could get in touch with your psychiatrist again as well, and see if he has any short term solutions which could help.

I am so sorry Grandy. I know you are deeply hurt, and understandably so. Nobody is questioning your honesty or sanity here. I hear you, I totally believe you, I really feel for you.

But .... I must go. Will try to check back in with you later. I will be thinking of you.

Amanda 🌺

[Ggrand]

Deebi, I'm so really sorry 😭 I said that ...if you never want to talk to me again I can understand.....I feel so bad...

Sorry isn't enough to let you know how I'm feeling about my words...

grandy...

[demonblaster]

Bbl Grandy I'd talk now but a bit emotional and VERY tired moreso.

Real friends talk stuff through. We are so I'll be back. It's ok Grandy 🤗

Love you through thick and thin like you love Deebi/Demonblaster 💜💑

Breathe sweet really slowly in and out, just think about that and what about going to your book and look through it.

Hot bubbles bath?

🦄

[Guest8901]

My dear Grandy ... Are you okay?

If not, or if you are unable to answer that question, then I'd suggest you're not okay. And I would strongly urge you to call one of the help lines and talk to them.

Could you do that for me .. Please?

I care a great deal for you, and you are very important to a large number of people here. You matter my friend, and your obvious distress right now, has me very worried about you.

No need to reply, but please know I am here for you, along with all your other wonderful supporters.

Amanda 💜

[demonblaster]

Grandy hun remember we're 🤝 in this together. We WILL get to the other side of this rot sweety.

I was going to log off now but I'll check in later before I go to bed to see if you're ok.

Remember your brilliant idea with the emojis. Just one lovey so we know you're probably not but ok. I know we're not to pressure but we care and love you and not asking for a big post or more than just one single emoji. We do that with eachother.

Don't like you being so low 🤗

Mandy gave great advice and such a caring post. You are so loved my lady.

Hoping you've had something to eat, even if you don't feel like it please try for strength.

Hope you can get some sleep tonight, I think you said the 1000 counting worked after your first attempt reaching zero ☺

Love you 💜💑🦄 Staying with you tonight making you a nice chamomile tea, it's sposed to calm us, some swear by it. You'll come through this and we'll be with you 🕊🌹 not leaving you.

[Ggrand]

😭

[demonblaster]

Good girl thank you 🤗

Ahh darl you're hurting so much. Too much to deal with isn't it. I get you being quiet and take what time you need but if ok with you just what you dids fine with emoji. I'll come and keep you company and never leave your side ok. You're loved never forget that, it's the most powerful force on earth and you deserve it whether you believe that or not.

You've been doing so well and we all have setbacks Grandy hun. You're stronger than letting it take hold I know you are.

Sweet I've been working more on mindfulness being more aware when I think of it and they said in Pauls (Blondguy) thread 'Mindfulness what is it"that if you take the emotion out and we can by not thinking more how thoughts make us feel, then think about the situation from an outside view, believe me lovey if I can do this you can because we have some similarities and you must believe if nothing else for now you ARE strong enough to pull through.

Your thoughts are yours, take control over them. Honey believe you can do this and you can. Don't let them get to stronghold.

Just did another batch of breathing. You prefer 5 in and out...let's do it together 🤝 only focus on the air going in filling your lungs nice and slowly no rush that's the way and slowwly out and say to yourself relax ..good...and again slowly only thinking about the air going in annnd out with relax ..thatta girl..5 times, I'll tell you more with that later. Every time you feel tense darlin breathe with me. If you do this just before bed too and I've been doing it in bed too. Pammy said getting the diaphragm working stops the adrenalin.

Arms around you, you're going to be ok Grandy, you're safe. Come on I'll tuck you in to your comfy warm bed, thatta girl keep breathing nice and deep, let all the air out that's the negative energy leaving your body. Then the 1000 count backwards in 3's.

Give your beautiful 🐶🐕 fur buddies a big hug and feel your and their love.

Feel mine too hun and the warmth and care you have here.

Love you Grandy please don't give up if you do then IT wins.

🤗💑💜🕊 Nigh nite sweets, I'm on the beanbag if you need me just sing out.

[Tess2]

Dear Grandy,

i am so sorry you are having such a difficult time. You are in my thoughts and I look each day to see if you are managing. I am inclined to agree with Mandy, this psych is the problem not you and I would consider whether it is worth pursuing. I know you have limited choices where you live, but I’d the relationship is damaging you then you need to question its value.

you are a kind and loving person and need validation. I know how hard it is and how awful loneliness is. Cuddle those doggies and feel their warmth and their little hearts beating.

You are obviously loved by many here and give valuable advice and support to others, I know I appreciate your posts

tess