Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[demonblaster]

Dear Grandy Floss 👩‍❤️‍👩 and all 🖐

Hey there gorgeous bbff I hope you've had a good day precious lady 🤗

Now this is hoping I've got dates right I'm popping in to let you know sweet lady you're always in my thoughts and esp tomoz I know you have VC again and how draining it is.

I'll be right there 🤝👀 with you darlingheart.

I really do know how incredibly waring it is to release pain memories and tears which I hope you try not to hold back sweets this rot so badly needs out. Imagine with every drop 💧a chunk of pain flows away never to return.

You're a beautiful friend a beautiful soul and a very good hearted strong lady who has so much more power than she's aware of and is learning to use it for recovery.

You always impress me Grandz. I have the world of love and time for you.

PubAok honeyheart you're an amazing lady who has so much love in her life because of the beautiful person you are.

It goes deep stays that way and grows.

Sleep sweetyheart and on waking tell yourself todays going to be a good day because you're on your way to recovery.

So my lovely I popped in your pillow when you were outside with our gorgeous furs before a handful of psychadelic bubbles.

When you rest your dear head on the pillow tonight you'll hear the gentleness of little wee bursts that create the most beautiful aromas that put you in a state of cloud ⛅peace 🕊 that instantly totally relaxes your entire body. They absorb your pain in a breath.

As you sleep these busy bubbles they're called continue to comfort and ease your soul.

They emanate light and a blanket of warmth into your soul when you breathe.

They remind you in your dreams of the goods in your life and the reasons people love you so very much.

With a heart like yours you'll never be alone.

You mean the world Grandz. I'm with you in spirit soul sista bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🤗

💧⛅🕊🤝👀🗯✨🌈

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, and everyone...🤗..

Thank you so much for your very beautiful words, I appreciate them so much..

Deebi...I’m sorry, my appointment with VC is next Wednesday....I have a big week next week...Tuesday work... Wednesday Cardiologist for halter monitor, straight after is VC therapy..Thursday back to Cardiologist to have halter removed.....The following Thursday is my bone scan...

What a beautiful pillow you gave me Deebi...It worked because I layed on it on the lounge and fell asleep...I was going to pop into yours but I fell asleep on the lounge...I woke up early hours of the morning with my silly hip giving me grief....I took a couple of pain relief meds then straight into my bed...

I will be back this afternoon and pop into visit you..and have some tea and scones..I’ll bring the scones..😚..

I need to go to town now..I want to buy a BBQ chicken, I’m enjoying stir fries atm...easy and quick to make and healthy as well....

Thank you for your love and care bbff...Same I have all the time in the world for you and that will never change...Love you my precious bbff...💜🧸🤗..see you this afternoon..

Sending my care, love and hugs to all you other beautiful people...Your all special people to me..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🕊🌱..

[monkey_magic]

Hey everyone,

Mmmm....scones! I love scones with jam and cream.

I've made U a cuppa Grands with some cream!

BBQ chicken.... stir-fry s....my fave.

I hope your busy week goes well and your health issues improve!

Debi's last post was incredible to read...

It would be lovely to have all those magical things the two of you think up...to heal us.

I had something naughty. Whipped up cream, cocoa and sugar and ate it. Tasted like a creamy choc mousse.

Enjoy your day everyone!

🌞😇😷🥰😘🤪🤗😀

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy & a wave to all,

I wanted to visit to see how you’re doing and to say a very happy and very warm “congratulations” to you for your recent (& well deserved) CC appointment 🙂

I feel so proud of you, but more importantly, I hope you feel proud of yourself.

I think you’ve come a long way...

To be able to give back...to give and to receive 🙂

To be able to connect with people...

To have that sense of daily purpose & structure...

Well done!

With love and care and a celebratory feast prepared by me.

Peppy xoxo

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Magic, Pepper and all...🤗..

Thank for your beautiful posts..

Magic....I used to make scones the old fashion way..then I found a recipe with flour, cream and lemonade...it’s so quick and the scones turn out so light and fluffy...Just love scones, cream and jam so much...Yes Deebi’s post is so beautiful and calming...Just like her beautiful heart...I’ve read it a few times and it puts some peace into my soul...

Peppy..Thank you very much for your nice words..

I needed to find a purpose and some structure in my life...I have always enjoyed helping people and really hope that I could one day be as helpful to other people here...as the other amazing CC’s are here...

I know you have been struggling so hard lately Peppy..and you still popped in here to say hello and chat a bit..makes your visit very special to me...Thank you for the celebratory feast..We can all pop over to mine, then jump in my car and I’ll take everyone who wants to come, to a beautiful Japanese garden 10 minutes from mine...We can sit and enjoy it while we chat, watch and feed the ducks playing in the little pond...

I have been sitting out front in the sun for a few hours now 😂..I realised that I can do that now if I want to...and not have anyone except me to answer to....it’s just to nice to go inside my house which is cold right now..

I hope the sun is shining at your places and you can get outside for a while and enjoy it...

Deebi...Pubaok, yadimh & 💭 forever..tucked away safe..love you dear bbff..Deeply..💜🧸🤗🤝👀..

My love to everyone, with kind thoughts and hugs..💜🦋🌹🤗...having friends I can chat to freely is the best thing that has ever happened to me...Thank you all..your all amazing people...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy.....Deebi...🌜👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🐆🐅🐕🐩👨‍⚖️👭🌛..

[demonblaster]

Mrs Gorgeous 👩‍❤️‍👩 and everyone 😊

They are nice aren't they. Yes I have that lemonade recipe too I think it's a 4 ingredient one. I might make some sometime for the gorgeous here so we'll pop around if ok and we can call the crew here to join if they like but I bags the bulk of the Lemon drizzle cake. Peppystar 🤗 so nice seeing your cake ... 😶 oops I meant you lovely 😅

Thanks sweety for the lovely comments I'm so pleased you like the "busy bubbles" and re readings awesome. I'm still having ideas for your 🎁 same happened with Peppys ages ago I have the ideas but a mental block to post it but I want to and enjoy the ideas coming so safer not to hold your breath lovey 😆 but it will come. Same with campfire 🔥 I should try and work more on it my minds a bit clearer these days but still 🙃

Oh how lovely you have some beautiful 🌞 It's a fabulous way of getting light into our minds and souls and of course warmth. Fascinates me something so incredibly old big and far away has so much power in it and reaches us. The worlds full of mystery and beauty. A lot of interesting things.

Hope you enjoy your time out there.
What a nice load off knowing Mrs Cranky isn't as much now. Loven that.

I hope your cows have been visiting even tho some are just pure bull 😄

Oh 😅 that's a perfect example of how I get things wrong in BP. I put it in the calendar counted 3 wks and still blooped 😄 fixed up now.
I'm glad cause I wanted you to know to take your time posting after cause it's important you have time to recoop lovey. No pressure 😄 famous words followed by ..but...hoping not too long though 😚

Well my girl I'm keen to hear how Mrs Beanies coming along. We're not allowed to pressure but I've been on a good behaviour bond for ages now 😅 so surely time to have a little naughty only cause I know you'll feel good about finishing and get very good warm use out of it.

I haven't thought of anything yet but been thinking a lot about possible help for your poor hip.
Great more tests wow you sure are busy next wk.

Love you gazillions sweetyheart. Very proud of you champ 😀

Everyone enjoy your days and aim for one smile at least cause then we're the winners yeah babies ☝

Love this one beautiful so I copied
🌜👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🐆🐅🐕🐩👨‍⚖️👭💜🌛

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi🤗 and everyone..🤗..

My words to you are truth Deebi..

Oh wow..I was so last today, The sun was so soul warming..just perfect...I ended sitting their until Mrs. C had another delivery of fire wood..it gave me a reason to get up..I couldn’t just sit their and not help, she has a sore back... Mrs. C was very grateful...

She told me that her son and family is coming this weekend for a couple of weeks..they live in a hotspot..Our council has asked to try not to have visitors from those areas..I am going to have to stay away from her for a couple of weeks after they leave..

I believe that the universe can heal us, it’s connecting ourselves with it, like the animals do..If you think about it, most animals do not get sick...They live in nature and spend most of their day outside...Just my thoughts..it really is fascinating...

Thats okay about mixing up dates..I’m good at that as well..

Hmmm...Beanie..I didn’t today, but it’s slowly growing..I’ll finish maybe in a few weeks...That’s my short term goal...

Do you have a goal Deebi..or anyone else here..I think it helps us in some way to motivate ourselves...

Last night if I could have, I would have thrown my hip and leg out the window..😂..So much aching..I have tried so many different things and nothing helps the throbbing pain..

Peppy’s lemon drizzle cake is the best...so yummy and tangy...I froze some..

Same gazillion love to you bbff..💜👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🦋🌱🌹💭..Nice word gazillion..🌈..🌜👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🐅🐆🐕🐩👨‍⚖️👭💜🌛...our family.

Sending kind thoughts, and hugs to everyone who wants/needs..💜🦋🤗..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy......

[demonblaster]

Dear Mrs Beautiful 👩‍❤️‍👩 and all other beauts out there 😊

Hi sweety Grandz same darl my words are truth as well.

While I think of hun I love that you feel so good about being here and the many friends you've made here.
I doubt if you're aware because beasty brat can't handle compliments the big sooky la la but you've touched many hearts precious lady 🤗

What a good day it sounds you had. I love your balcony we've had so many great virtual times there. Grandy 😢 I so much want it to be real one day. You here too and other amazings could as well. So peaceful and beautiful.
It is nice helping people. Love she's so grateful.

I'm really glad you're using your smarts to be away from her for the next few wks.

Liking your thinking. Mostly it does seem animals get through without to much sickness.

Thanks glad you mentioned a short term goal. So thanks to you I'm going to work on mils card which I've been keen to do again that'd be mania but I did pick pencil up but didn't continue.
I think the art I'm working on is one that I like but am stuck on a lot of it so I might end up finishing another for her that's more dainty.
You always make a difference Grandy Floss.
Stoked you're going to finish. That's big finishing something lovey. I hope you credit yourself.
I'm thinking also to do for Mr Deebi 😍

You poor love the hip.
Be magic if they have a fix for it gorgeous girl eh 🤗

Grandz hows your heart behaving 💜

It does have a ring to it Gazillion doesn't it ☺

Love our family 🤗 🌜👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🐅🐆🐕🐩👨‍⚖️👭💜🌛 love you too very deeply not sure if I mentioned it 😄

Hope your days are better lovey and that you're feeling stronger and better about yourself. You really are a beautiful person 💜

Nigh nite darling. Oh oh nearly forgot we swung by when you were dozing off and didn't want to wake you athough surprising cause I fell over a fur toy... knocked the corner table and everything on it ...tumbled down like a bag of ...sh..all we not say 😷 but lucky Mr 😍 was alert and caught them then started 🤹‍♂️ them cause that way they didn't drop phew... annd I might have screamed out quite loud the decibels are still vibrating from when I landed on my nose...itsth a bith flat now but I'm ok dust toorkin a bith flunny. Hey I'm sure I can fix 🔨⛏🛠 📎the table just like new 🛶. I think they might be able to turn my foot back around too and my face might need some makeup 🤔 so we did leave a yum coffee frappe in the oven...I mean the fridge.

👩‍❤️‍👩💜

[Paw Prints]

Hello Grandy,

I'm a fan of scones with jam & cream as well. I've never heard of making them with lemonade, that has made me curious to try. I will have to do some googling now.

Your telling us of you sitting with your pedal machine had inspired me to get one as a way of getting back into exercise. I had my first go at it today & I'm even more unfit than I thought, so it seems I will be having to do this in very small goes at a time to start with.

Mrs Cranky's visitors are a bit of a worry. I think you are wise planning to avoid her for a time after they leave. Do be careful while her visitors are about lass.

Hugs

Paws

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Paws and everyone...🤗.

Thank you for your kind words, and coming to mine to chat..You probably don’t realise how much it means to me..

Im pleased you both have some goals to accomplish...The hard part is getting motivated to start doing them...I like the idea of another card for mil Deebi...She is such a beautiful person and I know it’s something that she will cherish...

Paws..it’s hard the first few times on a peddle machine..I had sore calves the first couple of times I used it..I’m okay now, just doing it slow as I watch tv in the afternoon....I haven’t progressed past 10 minutes as yet..it seems to be a comfortable time for me...

The lemonade scones are really quick and easy to make..and are yummy as well...I really do hope you try them one day Paws...

Deebi..I love my veranda..it’s an escape from inside, when I’m feeling down with everything going on in the world today..just sitting, cuddling my furs..one on each side 😂..makes me realise there’s more to living then just sitting inside...I haven’t been outside at night so much this year..It’s much colder then last year....

My heart is behaving most days..which is good..The increase in meds has helped..but it’s also slowed my system down some more, and adding kilos...can’t win..with the weight...

Oh that’s okay about knocking over my corner table..I only have a plant sitting on it..no harm done except for your squished and flattened nose 👃..You sound cute talking funny..it made me laugh...sowwy bbff...didn’t mean to..but I so much needed it...Love you such big time bbff..Just the way you are...💜 🧸🤗...Same Deebi..our family is very beautiful..🌜👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🐅🐆🐕🐩👨‍⚖️👭🌛Please don’t ever change..your funny, compassionate, caring and the best ever friend I’ve had....Never want to loose your friendship..

Your all beautiful caring, compassionate people who have given me so much light in my life getting to know you all..

Its sprinkling today..I’m still in my pyjamas...so comfy and warm...but that’s okay..I’m not going anywhere except to take my rubbish bin out later today...

I hope everyone has a nice day today and do something that you like to make you have some happies..

Sending my care, love and hugs to you all...🦋💜🤗.

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy.....💭🕊🌱...🤝👀👂..