dear Catherine, I am so sorry that your Dad has passed away, as mine
did last year, he was 93 but had all his facilities and could remember
incidences from many years ago.
At first my Dad didn't believe
that I had depression and he was a GP, and with this I was really upset,
until he learnt that I tried to commit suicide, and then everything
changed.
Your father must have been struggling so much from
depression, and unfortunately the strength from this illness had just
taken his rightful soul away from him, this is awful for him as well as his family.
People
make horrendous remarks when someone does take their own life, and hell
this is just so wrong and made in bad taste, they obviously don't
understand the powers of this illness, and the strength it has over us.
Personally
when I was in depression, I couldn't come to terms to say to my family
that I loved them, but I knew that I did, I adored my two sons and all
their mates who thought I was good bloke, who I could make them laugh but
this was the fake Geoff, and I also adored my wife, apart from problems
that I have mentioned before, and deep down I knew that they were trying
to help me.
I did feel guilty, but I couldn't stop this feeling because depression had the power to control how I felt.
Why
I am saying this is because your Dad would have loved you and the rest
of the family, but like me didn't have the strength to tell you, it's
way too impossible to utter those words, and it's not his fault.
Personally if I said to them that I loved them heir natural thoughts would be 'Dad's getting better', but I wasn't, far from it.
Your Dad would have loved you all, please trust me and have faith in what I am saying, I and others have been in the same place, but I am talking for myself. L Geoff. x
