Ssuchislife,
Thank you for your strength in posting your story on our forums, welcome. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. It's heartbreaking to lose a loved one, particularly somebody who has meant so much, it sounds like she has been a true blessing in your life.
Everybody copes with grief in their own way and at their own pace. I remember when my grandpa passed several years ago, listening to music that encapsulated what I was feeling helped me so much. Music is such a powerful tool, and there's something so immersive about stumbling across lyrics or a certain melody that really resonates with us.
There's no shame in opening up to or sharing in your grief with other loved ones or your GP, a therapist, or psychologist. Sometimes it can be refreshing to talk about our grief with others, particularly people who may be able to offer us professional advice or words of comfort.
Take care of yourself during this time and do whatever you feel is necessary for your grieving journey. Sending my best wishes to you and your family.
SB
