My Dad

[Drwhofan]

10 years ago my father passed away I was there it's on the June June 19th of this well obviously this month I miss you so much I dream everyone off I dream of him all the Damned time he was my best friend and now I feel like I'm dying nearly every day I hate people I hate myself I hate everything and I don't know how to fix it I don't know how to change, I don't know what to do I want a family of my own and everyone else seems to be getting what I want and it just everyday is like a rubbing like it just keeps growing it in and then and then and I just hurt and I get hurt I miss my dad and I know others have lost their father but I miss the fact they was there for me and the thing that breaks my heart is when you need me there I wasn't I was too selfish I didn't do enough for him and I live with over the rest of my damn life for the rest of my life maybe this is my penance

[Mi8]

Hi Drwhofan,

I am sorry for your loss. I lost my Mum in August last year and I know losing a parent is tough. I'm struggling with it myself and often get caught out with dreams and triggers reminding me of what I have lost.

I have children myself and I know that when my time comes I want them to remember the good times and to try to live the best life they can without me. I'm sure your Dad would not hold anything against you and would want you to be gentle on yourself at this difficult time.

Griefline has a counselling service if you feel talking to someone would help 1300 845 745.

Take care.