Grieving for my son

[clocktower]

My beautiful son suicided on the twelfth of May 2015, he was twenty four years old. I struggle day in and day out to stay here on this planet which I call hell. This morning I found myself crying for no reason, I haven't cried for a while but it just hit me this morning. I rang my mother because I just needed to talk about anything really but she rushed me off the phone even after I had told her how I was feeling. I have no one. I live alone and I have no one. I struggle to see a point in keeping on going. I have a bone disease which causes me to break bones very easily, I currently have a broken hand and shoulder and I am so sick of pain. Physical pain every day is depressing me on top of the grief I am dealing with. I honestly do not know what to do or who to turn to.

[geoff]

Hello Clocktower, I'm sorry that your thread has been missed because it's a very concerning and sad comment you have wanted to tell us and I'm sure it took a great deal of courage and thank you for trusting us.

I am sincerely so sorry for the loss of your son, and I do understand the many unanswered questions that are going around in your mind at this time but you could not know what he was thinking and you could ask yourself over and over again why.

You will become a new person because of this, but that is not to say you will not be able to enjoy your life again because your grieving will take many different stages in life, especially when you are wanting someone to help you with this terrible disease.

Can I beg you to please visit your GP, which I'm sure you are already, but for your loneliness and depression, because once this happens then your disease is going to make it feel 10 times worse, and at the moment it's heading that way.

Keep talking to us, there will always be someone who will talk to you, and I have bookmarked this thread, so I will keep an eye out for you, so please get back to us, and once again my sincere condolences.

Geoff.