Hi Lmm, welcome
I'm so sorry for your loss.
I lost my brother 26yo in 1979 and uncle 82yo in 2002, by suicide.
I and my sister attempted but that was prior to a bipolar diagnosis.
There is no glossing over the importance of four things- time, a proper allowable grieving period, rediscovering a purpose and distraction.
At the moment you are still, understandably, in grief. You should allow yourself all the time you need for that process. Also at this time you are not focussing on how life will be once you begin to recover. I can yell you, life will be ok, changed yes, but ok. You will grow stronger.
When this recivery begins you can implement strategies to assist in the next stage, that is -purpose. Focus on other members of your family who vould do with support. Go camping, do things new, go to places you havent been...seek what good there is in life.
Google- Youtube Maharaji sunset
Distraction. Fill your life without idle periods. Even a jigsaw in a spare room can distract you, but of course sometimes nothing works, so by all means have a cry but try to limit it to a reasonable time frame say 20 minutes. You will feel tempted to continue it but in this recovery period you need to progress.
It isnt easy making suggestions as we are all different so be as flexible as you can be.
My neighbour has a rose garden in dedication to his son.
You can choose your own way of honouring your parents. But above all else...
They would want you to live a good life.
My care
TonyWK
