Mydogiamytherapist and I hope that is true, what a great name.
My dog, I hope it is ok to shorten you name, Welcome to this forum which is full of kind and supportive people.
I am so sorry for the loss of your dad to such an awful diseas,
Firstly you are a great human being a wonderful daughter. Wha you are experiencing is grief
The first year isnoften the hardest aftervthe koss of a loved one and the first three months are very difficult as you learn to cope without someone you loved and admired.
You are not crazy but you are grieving and we all grieve in our own way and there is no one right way to do it.
Being nagrynis th epartbofvthe grieving process!
It may be too soon, butvthere are groups for grief support or grief. Iunsellors who. An explain what you are doing is all part of grieving.
When my dad died I was angry at daughters who had a da$ but never saw them or took them for granted.
Can you talk to your mum or is that too hard?
If you want o keep talking here feel free to post.
One thing I did was to start a file on the computer Dear Dad, and I’d write down na6hying I would have tol dome if he was alive. sometimes Intold him how sad I was and othe times I told him family news. It helped me as I missed our chats.
You are confused and upset and this is all part of oping with grief.
Quirky
