I know this will be met with opposition. Im suffering and angry at myself for not staying single. If you get involved with someone special it always ends in pain and suffering. You break up or they die or for what ever reason you cant be together. This forum is filled with people suffering over grief. Why do we do this to ourselves. Do people feel grief less than I do or have they got some secret I dont know about. For me grief terrifies me and I do question why I got involved at all. I know this can never happen again no matter how wonderful it can be. I will never give my heart again because thats how I need to take care myself. Its not like im sad for a week or two but months if not years.
I really dont understand why we love only to get sick as a result. Its some paradox
