Worthless

[Guest_1055]

Hello

I am wanting to know if anyone else feels just worthless. And what they did about that feeling that creeps inside of you.

Thanks

[Guest_5218]

Yes Scotchfinger, you're right - Shelley gives the BEST hugs ........

xx

[Guest_1055]

Sherie, just checking on you.....

xxx

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[Guest_5218]

Hi Shelley.  Nice of you to check on me.  I'm okay thankyou.  How about yourself?

For your information, WA is 3 hours behind NSW during daylight saving time.  But when NSW revert back to normal time after summer, they are only 2 hours behind us.  WA dont have daylight savings.

Thanks for being there last night.  Your comforting hugs were an enormous help, just when I needed them the most.  xx

[Guest_5218]

Hi Shelley, my 3pm post has just come through.  You will see it on the previous page...........

Sherie xx

[Kazzl]

Hi everyone
A post of mine that's been in moderation for a day has just been posted too. It's on the Guilt thread in the Suicidal thoughts board. It has been edited and, on reflection, rightly so. It was a bit full-on. Anyways, it explains why I decided to join BB.
Sherie hun, biggest hugs. You did it tough last night. Anniversaries are hard. Re-living things is hard. Bloody hard. I get stuck in memories sometimes.
Here's to a better night for everyone eh?
See you tomorrow.
Kaz xxx

[Guest_1055]

Hello  Scotchfinger

I just want to check with you, to see if it is actually OK for me to smile on the inside, because of some of the things you say. I am now fearing that I have misunderstood you in some of your posts. As I really don't know you much at all. So if I have misunderstood, will you please forgive me?  Or if I have interpreted your words correctly can you reassure me. I would appreciate it so much..

Shelley xx

[Guest_1055]

Yes I found your post on the last page Sherie. I don't know much at all about PSTD, as I have never experienced anything like that. And I am a little cautious of even mentioning it, because I don't want to cause you any distress. It does make me feel sad. And I am truly sorry.

I did not know you ate for comfort, so do I, though I could not eat ice cream like you. Now what is coming to my mind is I think you did mention you liked dairy......... I head for the chocolate, whole blocks infact. But mostly I try to eat healthy. It is good you are not to hard on yourself about eating the ice cream.... well that is my understanding of what you wrote about that. I am way to hard on myself I think.....

I think I become a member of BB in early November, oh there is the date near my name.... 09 Nov 2015. Yes I do remember that man, and I did feel awful , and I was frightened of what he thought of me. I wanted him to understand me, but I am not convinced he did...

OK better go now, I have to brave a cold shower, because something has happened to the hot water system. I wish I could fix it. It is now almost 2am. Hope you are having a peaceful sleep.

Shelley xx

[Guest_5218]

Hi Shelley.  I see you were up and about late as usual.  When do you manage to catch up on sleep?  Or are you one of those people who can survive with just a couple of hours rest a night.  I certainly cant!  I did manage to get some sleep last night however, enough so I can stay awake for the cricket today I hope.

You can mention ptsd to me - it wont cause any further distress.  I had CBT (and Exposure Treatment) therapy in the middle of last year, and I'm much less sensitive about it now than I used to be.  I have to go through further therapy sessions this year, which I'm not looking forward to.  Its all pretty intensive and distressing stuff to go through.

Ahhh, chocolate!  Yep, me too.  I can chomp my way through a family block of chocolate occasionally.  I particularly like Caramello, but like all chocolate.  I wouldnt say that I was a regular comfort eater though, as it doesnt happen very often.  So when it does, I'm not too hard on myself.  It usually happens for a reason, so I dont get down on myself too badly.  I do that enough over other things without adding that to the list.  Any yes, you recall correctly, I like all dairy foods.  But also fruit and veges.  So I like the healthy stuff too.............

Okay so you joined 11 days before me.  You are right about the homeless fellow, I dont think he understood you at all.  Nor me, for that matter.  I think we were on different wavelengths entirely.  But I do still think of him, and hope that he is okay.

A cold shower at 2am doesnt sound too welcoming.  And about fixing it, if you need a tradesman, its the worst time of the year to get one in.  I do hope you're not without hot water for too long.  And I think we are about to get some cooler and wet weather in most areas around NSW too.  Not ideal.  Have to boil the jug.  Do you have a bath, or just a shower?

Wayne - I havent seen you on this thread for a while.  But I recall last I heard you were not feeling the best.  I hope you are improving now.  I have seen you on the "Follow that Word" thread, so I know you are still there.  I think you said you could hardly string a few words together, so that is a good thread for you to still keep in touch, sort of.  I look forward to hearing from you again soon though.  You and little Lucy.  You can bring her to the Cafe you know!  Perhaps to watch the cricket today?  I may bring my Holly along today too.

Okay, hubby has breakfast ready to go.  Catch you at the Cafe for the cricket.

Sherie xx

[Chicken_Wings]

Hi Sherie,

i know if this is a good idea or not, but could you plan something good for the 29th? Something that's for you, something you will enjoy, a way to start reclaiming the day. You don't deserve to have a whole day taken from you. 

One thing I want to point  out is that you are not pathetic.

Shelley I did see your quote, it is very true. I did go back to sleep on the couch, but forced myself to get up a bit later so as not to waste the day. It's back to work tomorrow, I'm a little glad as it means I will have something to occupy my days, but scared because it means I'm even closer to my trip.

hello Scotchfinger, nice to meet you.

[Guest_5218]

Hey Shell, you've been keeping a very low profile today.  I am hoping that it means you are having a fantastic day. But just wanted to check that you are indeed okay?

Here's a hug, in case you need it ........  {  }

Sherie xx