Worthless

[Guest_1055]

Hello

I am wanting to know if anyone else feels just worthless. And what they did about that feeling that creeps inside of you.

Thanks

[Chicken_Wings]

Hi Shelley,

yes, the trip is to see mum. When I think about seeing her it's exciting and I feel emotional. I'm just not sure how to make the flight and I think that fear is feeding my other fears too.

[Chicken_Wings]

We certainly don't think you crazy Sherie. Do you have any puzzles? Perhaps you can do one whilst watching the cricket? That's like a double whammy of distraction.

yep, wa back to normal. I'm still not used to it. It's meant to cool down New Year's Eve, and then it's back again.

Hadley is my little man, Baxter is the other one. They're both flat out on the couch next to right now, they're not keen on the heat either. Well done Holly! Hadley caught a rabbit once, I was secretly quite proud. 

[Guest_1055]

Nope, never see you as crazy.

xx

[Guest_1055]

Well today, I am thinking about myself so much, it even sounds like a I am selfish, as I read those words, I just wrote.

It is just I hate how I don't seem to be able to have intellectual conversions with other people. Like that part of my brain does not function very well. I know I feel for people and emotions  I can relate to. I am not even sure if people understand me. I don't even understand me. Like who am I? Today it just seems to be me, me, me. I can't get out of me mode.

Sometimes when people speak facts, well I try to understand but it is an effort to unravel what they are saying. I am even getting confused as I am writing this, and my mind is vague.

Please understand I am OK, just feeling a little dumb.

Ok bye now

[Guest_5218]

Oh Shelley my love.  You could never be selfish.  To me, you sound like the least selfish person I know.  It just isnt in your nature to be selfish.  It honestly seems as though you put everyone above yourself all the time.  Thats a typical mother thing, I know.  But you're the same with everyone else as well.  And if today you are finally starting to think about yourself for a change, then great!  Its about time you thought of yourself a bit too.

Did you read the post on this thread that I wrote a little earlier?  It was towards the bottom of Page 10.  We are on Page 11 already!  Anyway I was totally honest with you when I said about your reaching the 500 posts mark, and about how many people you have helped throughout that time.  That is quite an achievement.

Who are you?  Well, I'm not really sure.  But I do know that you have a family who love you, that you care about others, that you strive to understand others so that you can help in any way that you can, and I know that many people appreciate that so very much.  If you sometimes find it difficult to unravel facts, then I wouldnt worry too much about that.  People are usually either fact oriented or feelings oriented.  You seem to fit the feelings mode.  The world would be a far better place if there were more like you in it.

Think of all the super smart people of this world, who are so emotionally stunted.  I know which I'd prefer to be. Dont be so hard on yourself.  Just be you............    YOU are a fantastic person.  And definitely not dumb!

So I am sorry that you are feeling this way today.  Do you know why this is - has anything happened to cause these feelings?  I note that you say you are okay.  I hope that is the case.

Much love,

Sherie xx

[Guest_1055]

Hey Sherie

Yes it is the case, I am OK. When I read your words of love to me earlier, it did make me cry. It was a soothing touch in my heart and I felt you really did care about me. So I am grateful for you.

Yes....I also read your other post about the 500 mark. But I did have trouble unraveling its meaning, whether it was encouragement or not. So I took it as encouragement. So thank you.

Anyway I think I read that tomorrow, no today....as it is now just past midnight is your second day at your new job. Hope you have a good day Sherie.

With hugs of thankfulness

Shelley xx

[Chicken_Wings]

Shelley you are anything but selfish. You are so kind and so generous with your comforting thoughts, it's ok to take moments for you too.

I wish I could take away your worries and help you be happy. I don't like the idea that you are scared or that you feel like you're not doing things right or that people may think badly of you. 

I wish I could give you a real hug and show you just how much your words have meant to me and to many others. I have a tear my eye imagining showing you thanks.

please know Shelley that you are a special lady.

[Guest_1055]

I too... long to take all your worries and the fear away from within you. So you would never ever feel them again. And thank you for the hug, sometimes I do really need one, and it makes me feel like I truly matter to some other person on this earth.

Many blessings to you today

Shelley xx

[Chicken_Wings]

You matter more than I think you realise Shelley.

some days, I hate myself and my stupid life and I feel a terrible envy for other people. I envy their families and their loves. Shelley a person can't possibly be worthless if there is someone in the world who is envious of them. 

I am envious of each of the wonderful people in this thread for various reasons. I am envious of your beautiful soul and how much love you bring. Of your lovely family and of your faith in other people.

Then I think of Sherie and I am envious of the beautiful light she has that just draws people in. She is stronger than she knows. Then there's Kazzl and her fighting spirit, gosh how wonderful it would be to have that might spirit. Wanye and his wonderful life with animals. All the people here have something that is desirable and wonderful about them.

nobody here is worthless. You are all gifts.

[Scotchfinger]

Feeling worthless? mmm oh yeah. maybe "useless" is a better word. My self-esteem has roller-coasted all my life. Currently on the downward slope. Hope to pick up again in 2016. I've never really had much talent at anything and have envied those with it.